Valentines Day at Home

 Normally I don't get to have valentine's evening with Madam, normally that occasion is an event on Sir's calendar.  It's one of the dates in the year that he has specified as being one of his.

The lock down period sort of changed that a little bit, where we ended up with the 3 of us having valentines evening together - which was very nice and fun.

But this year, with it being on a Tuesday it didn't land neatly to fit into the schedules.  So Sir laid on a romantic evening over at his house on Saturday night for Madam.  With everyone having been out with Mistress Carol and kerri for a meal the previous weekend it was felt that it would be too much to have another night out so soon.

The result was that Sir came over on Friday evening and had the night here, I was in my cuckold maid role for the evening and served both Madam and Sir before being dismissed from Madam's room at about midnight.

Saturday afternoon Sir went home to prepare everything for the evening at his house, and to get the cooking done - he is quite a good cook- and I was given orders to deliver my wife to his home at 7pm, which was duly complied with at the allotted time.

From all accounts they had a lovely evening.

I used some of my free time on Saturday to have a call and chat with Kerri to see how she was doing and also how Mistress Carol was getting on. Both are in better form and kerri has now had a firm job offer so will be starting that in Early April.  That change has made her sound a lot better and happier.

On the Sunday the plan was to go and visit a Garden centre as I wanted to get some daffodils plants and bulbs for the front garden to replace the ones that I think one of the squirrels has taken - Yes I know, just how Rock and Roll do you want.  Sir and Madam met me at the garden Centre and we had lunch together - It's not all kink you know, there is some vanilla stuff in our life.  

There are times when I sit in places like that and look round at everyone else and wonder who else in here is in chastity? who else amongst the men is wearing wearing stockings and lingerie under their street clothes?  Next time you are out and you have a moment, just have a look around and give it a thought?

The rest of Sunday was spent at home, I was back in Maid mode looking after Madam and Sir for the afternoon and evening.  Sir went home about 9pm that night.

Madam spoke to me once Sir had gone and let me know that her plan was to have valentines night with me and that I should prepare something for us to have at home.  So I put some thought to it.

On Tuesday morning I was up and made Madam's breakfast for her and took the card I had for her and placed it on the tray along with the small present that I had got her.   (we tend not to give big or fancy gifts at valentines, it tends to be something like a pair of knickers or stockings - there has been the occasional exception in the past where I have got Madam some matching lingerie as she was going away for a weekend and I wanted her to feel special.)  On this occasion I had got her a pair of lace top stockings.

(Just so you are aware I had also sent a valentine's card and a present of some black satin knickers to kerri.)

  Madam was very pleased with her card and gift and gave me a card and a small packet.  My valentine's card was a "Happy Valentine's day to my Wonderful Wife" and was addressed to billie.  My present was also a pair of stockings.  Madam told me to join her in the bed (just kick off your heels) and to cuddle in next to her. while she had her tea and toast.

Madam explained that for this evening she wanted me to be in blouse and skirt when she got home and to have my Pink PJs up in her room for later.

Once Madam went to work I cracked on with making the bed and getting the bathroom squared away, nothing too drastic as I had done a full clean the previous day.  The rest of the day was with me working from the office dealing with a project for a rather difficult client (and I'm being kind to the client as they are particularly difficult!).

The evening meal would be a small buffet of party finger food (we had a number of packs of things in the freezer from when we were expecting more people for Christmas and new year, I also had some profiteroles defrosting as I know that Madam is particularly fond of them).  With a bottle of wine in the fridge chilling things were all set.

Madam arrived home at her usual time and I had her bath ready for her, while she had a soak I laid out our evening buffet ready for when she was finished.  I could hear her upstairs getting dressed  as I laid out the last of the food and went and opened the bottle of wine for her.  I poured her a glass when I heard her start to come down the stairs and I waited with the glass on a small tray for her to come into the living room.

when she entered the living room, I bobbed a short curtsy and said "happy valentine's Madam" and offered her the glass.  I got a look from her and thought that I had messed up and then she smiled at me, "It's a night off for the maid, go get a glass and join your wife, Dear."

I came back with a glass and Alice poured me a glass of wine and gave me a full and very passionate kiss and then asked "will you be my Valentine?"

the simple answer from me was "Always!". With that we kissed again.  

It may well be the extended periods in chastity, or may be just an age thing (I'm not a pup any more -haven't been for a long time!) but it is moments of intimacy that really do get me turned on, I really enjoy and get a lot from kissing, hugging and cuddling my wonderful wife.  That does not detract from being fully sexually intimate with her, in all forms, but I am now more aware of the parts of the relationship that feed my emotional needs.

For the next hour and a bit we basically grazed on the food, chatted and cuddled with each other.  once we finished eating we were more like a pair of frustrated first daters, there was lots of roving hands, going underskirts and rubbing fronts of knickers while we were lying on the couch necking with each other.  Looking back at it now, after a few days of reflection, it felt like the time we were almost caught by Alice's mother making out on her couch when I was courting her many years ago!

I clearly had got my Madam a bit worked up as she called a halt to the activities and ordered me to 'get my arse up to her room' and get dressed ready for her.  I scuttled off in my heels to the bedroom and quickly removed my blouse, skirt and stockings.  I had preempted things by having my pink bra, suspenders and knickers on, so it was a case of just putting on the pink stockings, satin french knickers and cami and then putting on the satin PJs over the top.  I finished it off by adding my red heels.  I was making a fair assumption that we were not going to be going to sleep just yet.

photo taken on Thursday evening for another photo session

Alice came into the room having already taken her blouse and skirt off down in the living room and was in a black bra, knickers, suspenders and stockings. As she came into the room she undid her bra and went to her drawers and got a satin chemise and put that on, with it coming to mid thigh.

The two of us were now very much dressed in slippery satin, Alice in black and me in pink. We got onto the bed and continued on from where we had been down stairs, just with more room.  The risk of falling off on to the floor was significantly less on the double bed than it had been when we were on the couch.

I don't know if it was by habit or if by gentle direction but once Alice was starting to get worked up with all of our kissing and roving hands, I found my self moving down her body.  I could see her nipples pushing against the satin so I started to lick then through the material.  As I kissed and licked one, I would gently brush the material over the other with one of my hands.  Feeling them get hard, taking my time on them.  There was no rushing this evening, plenty of time to make sure that my wife was slowly building up her arousal.

I slowly worked my way down to between her legs and slowly rubbed the satin that was covering her legs and stockings.  Regular readers will know that stockings are my kryptonite, so feeling them and rubbing my wife's nylon covered legs was making my tight caged confinement even tighter and more uncomfortable - but in a really good way.  (last statement will seem really odd, unless you have spent an extended period in chastity and or get turned on by being teased and confined, it's difficult to explain but having chatted with other chastity wearers they have similar feelings - Yes seems odd but it just works, trust me on this!) 

From stroking her legs I pushed the chemise up and then started to kiss the tops of her stockings and her thighs, while doing this I eased her panties down so that I could then kiss and lick my way up to her lovely sex.  I love giving Alice, my Mistress and wife, oral pleasure, to slowly work my tongue around her pussy is divine and to work her towards an orgasm is a fantastic feeling, especially as you listen to the changes in her breathing, the changes in her body and if she has her hands on my head to feel the pressure applied and released and then reapplied to push my face into her pussy, absolutely delightful! To worship her and bring her to orgasm...well I'm a very lucky submissive.

Madam released me from her thighs once she had calmed down, I move up to cuddle her and to hold her as she got her breath back. 

She told me to take my PJ bottoms and the knickers off and to get her strap on.  I duly complied.  I was told to come back onto the bed and to lie on my side facing the wardrobe with the Mirrors on the door.  Madam adjusted the Strap on and once she was happy she applied some lube to my sissy hole and also to the shaft of the strap on.

what was under the PJ jacket and trousers

I was told to get comfortable and adjust the pillows, Madam did the same and then wriggled in behind me and eased the dildo into me.  Everything was very slow and comfortable, nice and gentle.  Once she was fully in me she started to kiss my neck and rub her hand over my stocking covered legs and the satin of the PJ jacket.

I was told to keep watching the mirror, as she very gently fucked me. She had one hand free to wander across me and the other supported her. The one place that her hand never went was anywhere near my caged clit. 

All through this Alice was whispering into my ear, telling me how much she loved me, how special I was.  She made it clear that if I started to feel that I was going to cum (dripping was fine but no assgasm!) then I must tell her.  Twice during the evening I almost reached an orgasm as she fucked me and whispered love  and dirty talk into my ear.  This was one of the most erotic and frustrating edging sessions I've ever endured, but I would do it again! (I haven't been milked or allowed to use my dildos for nearly 6 weeks now so this fucking/ love making was very frustrating - I'm normally milked every 2 weeks if I haven't cum from being fucked). Each time I told her that I was about to cum, she would slow to a stop, focus on kissing me, bite my ear, rub my legs, enough to keep me aroused but enough to allow the feelings inside to subside and then she would start again very slowly. 

The pace was very pedestrian, and we were coupled like that for just over an hour.  The thing that made us stop was actually that Alice's other arm was starting to go dead and becoming uncomfortable 😆😆. Alice withdrew from me and I rolled onto my back while she straddled me and I watched her trying not to chuckle as she worked feeling back into her arm!  I sat up and held her close and kissed her.  

That had been a very special valentine's fucking.  While I was incredibly frustrated it was totally fantastic, I'm not sure how to better explain it.

We kissed and cuddled for a bit and then I helped to take the strap on off her and we got into the bed and spent the night cuddled together.

In the morning I woke at my usual time and went to sneak out of the bed so that I could get dressed and prepare Madam's breakfast.  Alice caught my hand and told me - her husband - to get back into the bed and keep her warm until her alarm went off, it would appear that the maid was getting a late start.  When the alarm went off we were both up and Alice told me to join her in the shower.  As much as we would have loved to have spent longer in the shower together, Alice had to go to work so when she got out the shower I quickly dried myself, wrapped a towel around myself and went down to the kitchen to make some coffee for her and put it in a travel mug for her to drink on the way to work.

I met her at the bottom of the stairs, with just the towel on and handed her the mug.  she put on her jacket and then gave me a very passionate french kiss. Just as she went to leave she pulled at my towel, pulling it off me and stepped out the door.  Her leaving comment as I stood naked in the door  was "Make sure to stay there to wave me off Dear!" She then through the towel out onto the grass on the other side of her car.  

So I stood naked at the open door of our house waving Madam off to work, as she drove out passed the gate and as she waited to turn into the road as a couple of cars came passed.  I kept waving until she pulled into the road and disappeared down the lane.  I have no idea if any of the passing cars saw a naked bloke waving his wife off to work that morning or a naked person wandering out in the front garden to collect a discarded bath towel!

I worship my Madam Alice

I started this post by saying that I don't normally have valentine's day/ evening with Alice or Madam, well I'll be honest this valentine's day made up for it. I think I spent the rest of the day with quite a spring in my step.

billie 💋💋💋   

You are what you wear

The last 2 weeks have been busy on the work front for both Madam and myself, we've both had trips away and it has meant that we have spent a few days where our paths have only crossed briefly.  So this post is quite appropriate.

For me there are quite a lot  of times when I have to go out into the vanilla world to do real life tasks or for work. When I do, I need to make sure that I'm dressed the part and appropriate. But there is always the need to meet Madam's requirements of our FLR and marriage.

For example a normal Friday morning is when I take a trip out to get the weekly shop. To the wider world I'm a bloke wandering about the supermarket with a trolley and a hand written grocery list. what most don't see is under the Rugby Shirt, jeans and fleece Jacket is the Bra, panties and suspender belt holding up the stockings. Come the summer things normally change to replacing the bra for a cami top.

why bother? why not just put on your jeans and shirt and go shopping?

Well because Madam wants me to always have female underwear on, to always have some form of hosiery on my legs.  During the winter these can be opaques, or if they are lighter deniers then I will have opaque knee highs on as well.

I own very few male dress socks now, most have been replaced with 60 denier knee highs.  The same goes with my male underpants, there are a couple of pairs put to one side in a drawer with my male socks.  Most of my male socks are thick socks for when I have to wear site boots, wellies or if I'm going to do some serious walks (which I occasionally do as a way of getting some exercise without annoying my knee too much).

My day to day knickers are normally from Marks & Spencer and will often be a multi pack of Full Briefs or Brazilian cut briefs, and normally nylon or modal material.  That helps to keep my fancy pants for specific jobs at home when fully in billie mode.

As for stockings I continue to use Charnos 24/7 15 denier stockings, they are a plain top and come in a 2 pack.  They are a good everyday wearing item.  That gets matched up with one of my suspender belts.

when it comes to vanilla work wear, I'm at the stage now where I tend to wear Jacket and trousers.  Often it will be a tweed jacket but the trousers will be a suitable type that would match - tweed, chinos, jean cut (but not blue denim - I feel too old for that) and I also have got in to the habit of wearing a waist coat.  The idea is to try and look smart for the meetings without being too formal and stiff (but I do like Traditional and Madam does like her husband in tweed as well as lingerie).  I also try and use coloured or checked shirts.

This whole set up works really well with wearing my lingerie underneath.  The coloured shirts and waist coats allow me to wear a bra, even when  take my jacket off.  The trousers are thick enough to allow the stockings and suspenders to be worn and the suspender clips are not completely noticeable (you'd see them if you went looking for them) and the leg length, even if they rise up when I sit in a low chair is covered by the use of the knee highs and the way they look like thin dress socks.

 The only sort of variation on this is when we head to see Madam's family, this normally means that I will switch to either tights or hold ups as the risk of being hugged tightly by a family member (Ellie!) is quite high, so no suspender belt or bra.

The last thing to bear in mind is what to wear to hide your chastity as well as comfort, The cut and style of the trousers does have a impact and as I found to my cost with one cage that having trousers that are too close fitting or of a material that is to stiff or unyielding can be painful - I had a CB-6000 cage split on me when we were driving and I had on a pair of jeans, and that I can assure people is bloody painful.  when I was wearing slightly larger cages I tended to go a size up in waist size of the trousers this tended to give more space in the bum and the groin area.  Its more about the sitting down rather than the standing.  

With the smaller metal and resin cages I can get away with my normal size trousers.  A word of advice - Have shirts of a good length (front and back) and wear a belt with your trousers, unless you want to expose the tops of your knickers, suspender belt or tights to the world.  OK I accept sometimes that risk of exposure is the risk that some people want/ crave. For me it is a case of being discrete about my undergarments when in male mode.

It has been interesting chatting with other submissives about what they would and do wear and there are similar variations for what they wear for public and professional/ working life.  

Some of it relates to how public you are with your home life, how comfortable with being seen as a submissive or sissy.

For some it is just a case of just wearing panties is enough to either give thrill or for their partners to have control over them by forbidding them to wear anything other than women's knickers.

There are 2 particular examples from my working life that I remember.  One chap that I worked with always wore silk and satin french knickers and was very open about it saying that he found them very comfortable and "felt great".  There was no submissive or sissy aspects, just someone with a liking of silk/ satin underwear and at the time there probably wasn't a lot of male boxers in that material, added to which he wasn't afraid to show people if they asked or if he'd was out on the piss.

The other example was a slightly different reason, a bloke that I had worked with on projects for a number of years and had a reputation for sleeping around - which had cost him his first marriage - was required by his second wife to always wear her knickers from the previous day as well as have his toe nails painted with bright red nail polish.  This was her way of reducing the likely hood of  him straying.  I would think if that was today, my fellow Site manager would have been placed in a chastity cage by his wife!

Having spoken with SaraE on this topic is about wearing women's knickers for her, as she puts it any type from Granny Panties to Thongs are what she likes.

Kerri, tends to be Enfemme most of the time when not at work - She is a TV not TS  - but for work she needs to be a little bit more conservative with the way she dresses.  Jacket shirt and tie are a requirements, so she says that her rebellious streak has her wearing Cami tops, suspender belt, stockings and panties.  while her shirt tends to be a woman's shirt (hard to notice when your tie covers the buttons) and she removes all of her earrings apart form a set of plain stud earnings. 

A TS friend that I have and chat to regularly works on trying to have an androgynous style of dressing, she works in a sector that would be very open and welcoming to her turning up to work fully enfemme but as she puts it, that just wouldn't work with her personal life, but she feels that by selecting a mix or styles of clothing she can feel very femme without attracting too much attention to herself.  In her case I have seen her being able to change her look just be altering the way she does her hair and with a little bit of make up (and I do mean just a little bit.) and occasionally by changing an item or colour of clothing, she can switch between Male, Androgynous and Female quickly and easily.

I had a good chat with Poppet over this and it very interesting to understand what we wear and what we are open or shut about doing and wearing.  The differences for Private, social, public and Professional can be completely different and for all of us what we are wearing at that particular time or role can change the way we behave or present our selves to our variety of audiences. If you have been to Poppets Blog (and I strongly recommend that you do - Link in the side bar) you will know what a shameless exhibitionist slut she is (❤❤💋💋 all said with love!), and with confidence (and she has that in shovel loads) you can carry that off in public - while we Brits often get accused of being prudes we are really quite taken with Eccentric behaviour and having a confidence can carry things through and it's surprising what you can get away with.  Also when you are in the face of the public- either at work or play, if you're just getting on with "stuff" most folks with either ignore it or "tut, it just the way he is!"

So for all the submissives sissies out there  - Wear what you are comfortable wearing, in a way that works for your relationship, your life and your work.  And just remember we are what we wear.

The Maid's Panties

 As requested by Sara,

A short post on some of the types of panties that get worn with my maids uniforms, principally the French and the cuckold maid uniform.  This is not some definitive list of the different types of panties that must be worn with maids outfits, only what I have and use specifically with my maids uniforms.

First off is my routine maids knickers/ panties.  These are all satin with white lace around the legs and the waist band.  The lace is soft and not too much.  these are very comfortable to wear and the Satin is very kind when wearing chastity cages, particularly if your foreskin pokes out.

They hug the bum really well and allow the suspenders to be shown. 

The next ones look very similar, as an all satin panty with white lace at the leg openings, however these ones have a Ruched Back to them, that is when the rear of panties are gathered in to the centre of the back and they really hug your arse, following the crack of your bum.

These don't have lace on the waist band, just on the leg opening.  The seamstress who made these had the Ruched Back as an option on most of her panties that she made.  If you are buying from a Ebay seller that makes their own outfits then give them a call/email prior to ordering to see if they can customise the items for you.

These are very similar to my routine knickers, very comfortable and supportive of the cage.  The lace at the legs isn't scratchy so pretty good.

With the rear view you can see how the ruching pulls the satin onto the curve of the bum and the centre seem is snug in on my crack of the arse.  These are really comfortable and I don't feel the need to try and pull them out of my bum.

Another view of the front.

The next pair are again a satin pair of panties this time with more white lace/organza edging.  A bit more fancy, but with the added feature of being fully open crotch - front to back.

All of the openings are elasticated, the satin has a nice feel to it as well - but there is no support as I'm fully exposed. 

These tend to be worn with my short Maids uniform (my cuckold uniform) so that Sir can see that I am caged.

These don't have lace on the crotch opening, you can get them like that and I have had a pair in the past but a point to note, unless the lace or organza is soft then it can be rough around where it meets your cage, Also Sir wasn't keen on the lace edge of the crotch opening, as he put it " very nice to look at but a bit uncomfortable when fucking your arse! take them off!" -just a practical thing to note, so that why this pair doesn't have lace at the crotch.

The next set is a must for all sissy maids, the ruffled panties!  These can come in a whole variety to types from satin with fully covered in ruffles or just the bum or as these ones they are a sheer black nylon with ruffles front and back.

Madam wanted these so that she could see my cage as I worked about her.  These seem to be a particular favourite of hers when I bring her breakfast in the morning.

As you can see they are quite high waisted, but I think that is so that each layer of the ruffles can be kept separate, you do get some where the ruffling does overlap a lot, if that is your thing then go for it!

The nylon on these is quite soft and doesn't cause a problem with my chastity and any exposed clitty skin.

You can see that the lace layers are narrow and well spaced apart.  The knickers hug the bum quite nicely.

Something to note - when you go looking for these types of knickers just check that they are maids knickers and not Adult baby knickers otherwise you will end up with a rather baggy bum as the AB versions are designed to take a nappy - not our type of thing, we like things to be snug and well fitting!

Lastly we have a Sheer Organza pair of panties but with the addition of a lace edged cock and bum hole.  Again you can get these in satin or nylon.  there are plenty of Ebay sellers that make sissy items that will add then the openings to the panties.

One of the things to point out to who ever makes them is to make sure the hole is sized to allow your balls and chastity to get through. one pair that we had in the past was only sized to allow my clit to poke through.

The rear hole should line up with your sissy hole, so you might have to send over some measurements to the seamstress and also you may need to tell her what you will need the hole for, Adding or removing a butt plug or if your Mistress or Master plans on using you through the hole, if it is the latter then don't be too small with your opening size.

This pair is to allow Madam or Sir to remove or add one of the buttplugs.  These tend to be worn with the short maids uniform, again it is because it has me fully exposed and on display.

 I've inserted a bit of white paper to highlight the lace around the openings.

There you go, a bit of a rummage through my knicker drawer.  Hopefully that was useful and hopefully the rationale behind each type might be a help to someone.

Regards

billie xxx