Why Do I Hate my Husband? - Fake News!

 From Madam Alice

The title of this post may well have caught your eye, it comes from several emails and Direct Messages that we get via the blog site or other social media sites/ profiles.  Both billie and myself enjoy getting comments and feed back from the posts that we create and as for some of the emails they help to spark my imagination when I think up plans for some of our activities that we do, which in turn helps to create the posts that we write - no we don't do requests.

Quite a few of the emails will come with a question or with something that an individual wants to ask but doesn't want to put into the open forum or comments, and that is fine by us.  We may choose to answer back by email or DM, or as in this case create a blog post with the answer. 

A question that appears quite regularly is about the state of our Marriage and if I am punishing billie for being a bad husband/ misogynist/ wife beater/ adulterer etc.

The simple answer is NO, I am not punishing billie. He has never done anything wrong to me, except perhaps try too hard to please me.  I could not ask for a better husband, partner and lover.

He has never raised his fist against me and only on a very rare occasion has he raised his voice- and when he does it is normally with good cause, in that respect he is very good at being my conscience when I'm about to do something that I might regret.

To the very best of my knowledge he has not been unfaithful to me - now that may sound really strange considering the relationship that we have with John, Carol and kerri, but if you follow the blog you know that all of these relationships involve both of us, together.

So, there is no punishment in the relationship.  Yes we do spanking and a bit of whipping and paddling, but that is consensual between both of us, it is a kink.

Our whole FLR is a mix of kink, consensual empowerment, consensual submission, a formal structure to help protect my husband from his destructive self and most important to ensure that we have strong relationship.  It works for us and as such we both contribute into it and feed from it.

If billie came to me and said he wanted this to stop then it would stop because it cannot work without both of us being willing partners to this.  And that is the important part, if I was punishing billie and forcing him to be the submissive, forcing the humiliations on him then it simply would not be a FLR - a Female Lead Relationship.  I would not be leading, I would be forcing, and it would not be a real relationship.

The real headline is that I don't hate my husband, I love him so very much and he is my equal and partner.  My Dominance is balanced by his submission.

Hopefully that answers the question.

    

A Present and a Sore Bottom

 Last week saw everyone having a busy week with work.  I had a couple of days on the road and a short trip into London for an afternoon to meet up with one of my work contacts to give him a brief on one of my recent jobs. but each evening had me back home.

Alice on the other hand was away for 3 days at a workshop  at her head office in London, her company arranged hotel accommodation as it worked out cheaper than everyone travelling back and forth from their homes and losing part of their working day.

While she was in London she took the opportunity to do some shopping and one of the items that she picked up was a present for me.  

I wasn't aware of this gift until Sunday afternoon when Madam told me to join her in her bedroom and I was presented with a long glittery box with a ribbon closure.  I was told to open it.

Inside was a new black dildo, complete with a set of balls and a suction base.  I lifted it out and immediately realised that this was certainly thicker in girth than the other ones.

Madam pointed out that this one was 9 inches in length and to use her phrase "a bit thicker for you."  the other concerning thing that I noticed was that it has a lot more ridges, lumps and bumps.

The new present next to my foot for size

Madam pointed out that the new toy would also fit in her strap on harness and that it was her plan to try it out later that evening, once Sir had gone home.

I was told that I should take my new toy to my room and "try it for size" and see how I would get on with it.

Well the test run with the new toy was the following:

• Yes it is bigger that my other toys.
• Yes the ridges and bumps to add to the feel as it goes in and out of my hole.
• It does make me gasp, especially once it is all in.
• The last 3 inches are thicker and I needed to go very slow with that part as it does stretch me out.
• You know when you get to the bottom 3" as I can feel that slight insert/kink in the length and it gets more difficult and uncomfortable from that point onwards.

So after a bit of work and plenty of lube I could take the full length of my new friend, but the last 3" were definitely not taken at any sort of pace.

Having had a bit of fun training with my new toy, I thought that I would be ready for the evening's activity with Madam.  Well that is not quite the way that it went.

Madam's strap on is a 7" smooth anal dildo that she has added a textured cock sheath to increase it to 8" and to increase the girth.  This is the toy that Madam likes using on me and from my point of view it is a good and fun toy.

 However, as you can see from the photo, there is a slight difference in length and definitely a difference in the girth. Madam informed me that her reason for selecting this toy when she shopped was having seen all the lumps and bumps on the monster dildo that Poppet Subslut has -  the tentacle - Poppet's double stuffing

Thankfully Madam didn't decide to copy everything as the Tentacle would split me in two - and don't listen to Poppet when she says that that beast is easy to take, as my dear friend is such a size queen!

As it was Madam had fitted the new toy onto the harness and I was told to apply some KY to my sissy hole and to lean over the end of the bed.

I asked Madam if she would go easy at the start as the last 3" may cause me a problem, Madam's reply was that she wanted to see how well I would cope with the extra girth and what type of noises she would get out of me!

Well, Madam wasn't gentle and I squealed quite a lot when the lower part of the dildo is pushed in and out of my hole repeatedly at a number of different paces.  Also it had me leaking quite a bit once Madam go into her stride!

Madam continued to fuck me for about 45 minutes, in a number of different positions.  All with the same results, the first 6 inches were easy to take and all of the bumps and ridges played havoc with my prostate, but the girth of the lower part certainly had me stretched, and there was times when Madam was quite relentless in the abuse and stretching of me.

Once Madam had finished with me, we were both in a bit of a state, both physically tired out and I had my emotions shot to hell, added to which my stretched hole was quite sore from the abuse.  We both lay on the bed and just cuddled together until such a point that we had both calmed down.

Monday morning found me being very careful in my choice of knickers for the day as I wanted something soft and light to wear as my sissy bottom hole was still rather tender.  As I kissed Madam off to work that Morning her parting words to me were that I clearly need more practice with the new toy.  I have a feeling that it will now be quite a regular play thing for both Madam and myself, and I suspect that I may have a few more mornings to look forward to with a slightly tender ass hole.