You are what you wear

The last 2 weeks have been busy on the work front for both Madam and myself, we've both had trips away and it has meant that we have spent a few days where our paths have only crossed briefly.  So this post is quite appropriate.

For me there are quite a lot  of times when I have to go out into the vanilla world to do real life tasks or for work. When I do, I need to make sure that I'm dressed the part and appropriate. But there is always the need to meet Madam's requirements of our FLR and marriage.

For example a normal Friday morning is when I take a trip out to get the weekly shop. To the wider world I'm a bloke wandering about the supermarket with a trolley and a hand written grocery list. what most don't see is under the Rugby Shirt, jeans and fleece Jacket is the Bra, panties and suspender belt holding up the stockings. Come the summer things normally change to replacing the bra for a cami top.

why bother? why not just put on your jeans and shirt and go shopping?

Well because Madam wants me to always have female underwear on, to always have some form of hosiery on my legs.  During the winter these can be opaques, or if they are lighter deniers then I will have opaque knee highs on as well.

I own very few male dress socks now, most have been replaced with 60 denier knee highs.  The same goes with my male underpants, there are a couple of pairs put to one side in a drawer with my male socks.  Most of my male socks are thick socks for when I have to wear site boots, wellies or if I'm going to do some serious walks (which I occasionally do as a way of getting some exercise without annoying my knee too much).

My day to day knickers are normally from Marks & Spencer and will often be a multi pack of Full Briefs or Brazilian cut briefs, and normally nylon or modal material.  That helps to keep my fancy pants for specific jobs at home when fully in billie mode.

As for stockings I continue to use Charnos 24/7 15 denier stockings, they are a plain top and come in a 2 pack.  They are a good everyday wearing item.  That gets matched up with one of my suspender belts.

when it comes to vanilla work wear, I'm at the stage now where I tend to wear Jacket and trousers.  Often it will be a tweed jacket but the trousers will be a suitable type that would match - tweed, chinos, jean cut (but not blue denim - I feel too old for that) and I also have got in to the habit of wearing a waist coat.  The idea is to try and look smart for the meetings without being too formal and stiff (but I do like Traditional and Madam does like her husband in tweed as well as lingerie).  I also try and use coloured or checked shirts.

This whole set up works really well with wearing my lingerie underneath.  The coloured shirts and waist coats allow me to wear a bra, even when  take my jacket off.  The trousers are thick enough to allow the stockings and suspenders to be worn and the suspender clips are not completely noticeable (you'd see them if you went looking for them) and the leg length, even if they rise up when I sit in a low chair is covered by the use of the knee highs and the way they look like thin dress socks.

 The only sort of variation on this is when we head to see Madam's family, this normally means that I will switch to either tights or hold ups as the risk of being hugged tightly by a family member (Ellie!) is quite high, so no suspender belt or bra.

The last thing to bear in mind is what to wear to hide your chastity as well as comfort, The cut and style of the trousers does have a impact and as I found to my cost with one cage that having trousers that are too close fitting or of a material that is to stiff or unyielding can be painful - I had a CB-6000 cage split on me when we were driving and I had on a pair of jeans, and that I can assure people is bloody painful.  when I was wearing slightly larger cages I tended to go a size up in waist size of the trousers this tended to give more space in the bum and the groin area.  Its more about the sitting down rather than the standing.  

With the smaller metal and resin cages I can get away with my normal size trousers.  A word of advice - Have shirts of a good length (front and back) and wear a belt with your trousers, unless you want to expose the tops of your knickers, suspender belt or tights to the world.  OK I accept sometimes that risk of exposure is the risk that some people want/ crave. For me it is a case of being discrete about my undergarments when in male mode.

It has been interesting chatting with other submissives about what they would and do wear and there are similar variations for what they wear for public and professional/ working life.  

Some of it relates to how public you are with your home life, how comfortable with being seen as a submissive or sissy.

For some it is just a case of just wearing panties is enough to either give thrill or for their partners to have control over them by forbidding them to wear anything other than women's knickers.

There are 2 particular examples from my working life that I remember.  One chap that I worked with always wore silk and satin french knickers and was very open about it saying that he found them very comfortable and "felt great".  There was no submissive or sissy aspects, just someone with a liking of silk/ satin underwear and at the time there probably wasn't a lot of male boxers in that material, added to which he wasn't afraid to show people if they asked or if he'd was out on the piss.

The other example was a slightly different reason, a bloke that I had worked with on projects for a number of years and had a reputation for sleeping around - which had cost him his first marriage - was required by his second wife to always wear her knickers from the previous day as well as have his toe nails painted with bright red nail polish.  This was her way of reducing the likely hood of  him straying.  I would think if that was today, my fellow Site manager would have been placed in a chastity cage by his wife!

Having spoken with SaraE on this topic is about wearing women's knickers for her, as she puts it any type from Granny Panties to Thongs are what she likes.

Kerri, tends to be Enfemme most of the time when not at work - She is a TV not TS  - but for work she needs to be a little bit more conservative with the way she dresses.  Jacket shirt and tie are a requirements, so she says that her rebellious streak has her wearing Cami tops, suspender belt, stockings and panties.  while her shirt tends to be a woman's shirt (hard to notice when your tie covers the buttons) and she removes all of her earrings apart form a set of plain stud earnings. 

A TS friend that I have and chat to regularly works on trying to have an androgynous style of dressing, she works in a sector that would be very open and welcoming to her turning up to work fully enfemme but as she puts it, that just wouldn't work with her personal life, but she feels that by selecting a mix or styles of clothing she can feel very femme without attracting too much attention to herself.  In her case I have seen her being able to change her look just be altering the way she does her hair and with a little bit of make up (and I do mean just a little bit.) and occasionally by changing an item or colour of clothing, she can switch between Male, Androgynous and Female quickly and easily.

I had a good chat with Poppet over this and it very interesting to understand what we wear and what we are open or shut about doing and wearing.  The differences for Private, social, public and Professional can be completely different and for all of us what we are wearing at that particular time or role can change the way we behave or present our selves to our variety of audiences. If you have been to Poppets Blog (and I strongly recommend that you do - Link in the side bar) you will know what a shameless exhibitionist slut she is (❤❤💋💋 all said with love!), and with confidence (and she has that in shovel loads) you can carry that off in public - while we Brits often get accused of being prudes we are really quite taken with Eccentric behaviour and having a confidence can carry things through and it's surprising what you can get away with.  Also when you are in the face of the public- either at work or play, if you're just getting on with "stuff" most folks with either ignore it or "tut, it just the way he is!"

So for all the submissives sissies out there  - Wear what you are comfortable wearing, in a way that works for your relationship, your life and your work.  And just remember we are what we wear.

A good weekend had by all

I dropped Sir and Madam off at the train station in Milton Keynes on Friday afternoon at 3pm and headed back to the house.  I changed out of my semi male attire (I was wearing a ladies blouse rather than a shirt and only had to change my male trousers and shoes) and put on a skirt and heels.

Its odd that I now do that as a matter of course and routine.  it isn't forced but I'm very comfortable with it - is this Madam achieving her aims of having a more female/ feminine house hold?

I pottered on with a few jobs in the house and got a few things out to make for my dinner when I got a call from Madam.

"Where are you at the moment?"

"in the kitchen, about to start making dinner"

"well stop what you are doing, go to your corner of the lounge and face the wall, stay there until you are told to move and don't turn around until you are given permission, Understand?"

"Is there a problem with the trains? is everything alright?"

"Yes things are fine and we are in the taxi to the hotel, now do as you are told!"

"yes Ma'am" and with that the call ended.

I put the fish back in the freezer (I didn't know how long I'd be in the corner) and went to the corner and put my phone on the small table near by to wait for Madam's next instructions.

I put myself on my spot, smoothed down my skirt , heels together  and hands folded across my the front of the skirt. and with my head slightly down.

I stood there for a while and to be honest I was trying to work out what Madam had planned,  we've done this domination by distance before when we've both been apart so it isn't a surprise but it does get your mind working.

As I was pondering what Madam's plan would be I heard the drive gate open  and a car pull in.  Thats really odd as both Sir and Madam are in London and normally delivery people have to buzz the bell to get access.  Everything told me to go and look but Madam had clearly told me to stay in the corner and not to turn around.

I hear the car stop and someone get out and close the car door.

The next thing I heard was the front door open and someone step into the hall.  now there are probably about 2 metres into the hall and then you have the lounge door , which is open and I am in the corner facing the wall diagonally opposit the door.  I will be honest my heart is racing, some one is in the house, I'm in female attire and in seconds I'll be visible.....fucking hell!!  I think at this point you could say that I may have had a high heart rate.

The front door closed, a couple of steps and I could hear them come into the lounge - the difference in the carpet (when you spend a lot of time facing walls in corners your other senses become more attuned to changes in noise and to people moving around behind you.

"My don't you look a picture!"

It was Kerri!

I went to turn but she was expecting that and I got a very quick rebuke!

"stand still, face the wall.  Just as your Mistress told you!"

I turned back to the wall and listened as Kerri came closer.  I think my heart rate was still high but for different reason,

Kerri, came up behind me and ran her hands up the back of my legs, under the skirt and slowly round to the front of my knickers.

Kerri whispered in my ear "has mean Alice gone away for the weekend and left you all caged up?"

"Yes Kerri"

"thats a shame, Alice has told me where my key is and I'm allowed out to play for the weekend, it's her valentines gift to me as well as having you all to myself for the weekend."

With that she turned me round and planted a very big kiss, and long lasting kiss on my lips.

Well this was all a big surprise for me.  when we broke off the kiss I was faced with Kerri the Goth.  She looked fantastic, she an carry the female look off in public and the Goth look really suits her.  I am always amazed at the way she does it - having seen her in male mode and in her sissy/ female mode she is definately really comfortable enfemme.  (not bad for a Morgage manager of a high street bank!!!)

I gave her a hug and kissed her again, It was really great to see her.  Kerri is very much my mentor and I could say sissy soul mate.

well after calming down (sort of - I was the submissive equivellant of an over excited puppy when her Mistress has just come home!)  I was told to get Kerri a drink - red wine and to go and get her bags from the car and put them in the Guestroom.

I came back to the lounge and Kerri was sat on the sofa with her wine, legs crossed and her stiletto ankle boots pointing at me.

"billie, be a dear and go to Alice's study.  there is a blue folder on her desk,  somewhere in that folder there will be a sealed brown envelope, bring it to me."

I almost ran to get the envelope, it was there in the folder, halfway down, I shook it out and brought it back to Kerri.  She told me to open it and inside was the key to Kerri's chastity.

Now Madam is Kerri's secondary keyholder, just as Kerri's Wife, Mistress Carol, is my secondary keyholder.  We both got our first chastitiy devices together back in 2005, so we have a bit of a bond over this.

I went to hand the key to Kerri but she stopped me.

"why don't you unlock it?  down you get billie, set your naughty girlfriend free!"

I quickly knelt and Kerri uncrossed her legs  and opened then, hitching the front of her skirt up.  she had black satin front knickers on and I eased them down as she lifted her bum of the sofa.  She has a metal cage similar to mine with the recessed lock.  I fitted the key and pulled that free, and then gently - and yes do it gently, eased the cage off my friends penis.  The back ring of the chasity was hinged and I opened that and took it clear of her bits.

I don't know why but I lean in and very gently started to lick her.

Kerri has been loccked up for quite a while - I'm not sure how long but i'm sure it's been a few months so I know that it takes a wee while to bring life back into a freed penis.  I spent a good while licking and slowly sucking on here, slowly coaxing it back to life.  the aim was not to make her cum and once she was content that she had some feeling back into things I was brough up and next to her on the sofa for what seemed like a long session of kissing.

Kerri explained that she was here for the weekend and would head back to Reading on Sunday night, we had permission to share a bed together - the Guest room - and Madam had booked a table for us at a Pub/ restaurant not too far away on Saturday night.  Other than that the weekend was our to enjoy, this Madam's real valentines gift to me and was to make up for not having my weekend with kerri in the Autumn .

And enjoy the weekend we did, even if I was still caged, it didn't matter.

Saturday night I took Kerri to the Restaurant, she looked great in a black dress with seamed stockings and a cream wool shawl over her shoulders, while I was in chinos and Jacket and tie but with basque and stockings underneath.  Kerri caged herself back up for the evening out so that she didn't have anything?! spoil the line of her dress. The meal was great, and Kerri had a few glasses of wine while I stayed sober as the designated driver.  kerri flirted with me all evening and even managed to do some flirting with the waiter, she can be a bit of a tart at times! bless her!

One we got home as I opened a bottle of wine for us, Kerri uncaged herself and that was us for the night.

I think when we collected Madam and Sir from the station on Sunday I think it was quite clear that we had enjoyed our weekend as much as Madam and Sir had enjoyed theirs.  Kerri stayed for dinner on Sunday evening and as a final act Madam had us both go to her study with her and I was made to lock Kerri back into chastity and hand the key back to Madam.  Madam kissed both of us on the lips and then had both of us kneel and kiss her shoes.  I was dismissed to get Kerri's bags and put them in the car and when I cam back Kerri was ready to go.  I walked her out to her car and we had a final kiss and I watched and waved her off.

now all of this may seem a bit odd, but my relationship with Kerri is fully sanctioned and really encouraged between our wives, Alice and Carol.  Just as Mistress Carol and Madam Alice are occasional lovers (Carol is Alice's one and only female partner) both myself and kerri were encouraged to form a partnership so that we could share each other's company and to be girlfriend/boyfriend to each other (chose which combination you would like of BF/GF).  Also Kerri really was my mentor as I developed as a submissive and as a sissy.  she has helped me develop and always been there for help and advice and it is great having time with someone who understand the other dynamics in our relationships.  it also helps that she knows the trials of being in chastity.

So all in all it was great having such a special house guest and I just wonder when we'll next have a get together - and maybe next time Madam will let me be uncaged.....or maybe not!