Showing posts with label emasculation. Show all posts
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14 December 2024

Thursday Review - Spanked and humiliated

Currently I'm home alone and doing catch up with chores, house work, home related emails and added to the mix I have to do this blog post.


Madam is currently out doing some Christmas Shopping and then she heads over to Sir's as it is his company's christmas function this evening.  I may have to go and get them this evening or they may get a taxi as the venue isn't far from Sir's house.  If they stay over at Sir's then I'll go and pick them up tomorrow to bring them home for sunday dinner.

As explained in the last post we are trying to get our normal routine back and running, and to be fair we are managing it.

Thursday night was review night.  I had been back from work late in the afternoon but early enough to get changed and to be waiting for Madam with her bath ready.  I was in one of my maids uniforms and I already had the evening meal prepared and ready to go once I knew when madam wanted to eat.


When Madam got home the instructions were straight forward.  I was to change into my short maid's dress and Madam would eat before the review, I would serve her as I should and then I would eat after the review was completed.

At 8pm I presented myself at Madam's study.  I was dressed correctly and with the tutu underskirt as it holds the skirt higher and further exposes me.


As is the normal, I went through my book with the points that I had picked up and noted, faults and what I thought might get merits.  Madam made notes and ticked of in her book where things matched.  It was then the reckoning.  Madam decided that there was a need for a spanking and also 20 strokes with the paddle. Madam also pointed out that since I hadn't felt 100% earlier in the week, probably due to me trying too hard with my diet and not getting eating in balance, she viewed this as a self inflicted situation and as such I should be reminded that I need to take better more care of myself. Madam also stated that she wanted to take a few photos of my punishment.

So with the punishments decided I presented myself and received the hand spanking first, madam uses this as a way to warm my bum up first so that I'm ready for the slightly more heavier punishments.  This was followed by the 20 with the paddle.

I was told to kneel so that Madam could get a good feel of how warm my bottom was and also she played with my plug a few time.  She told me to stay in position and left me while she went to get something.

When she came back I was told to turn round and then she started to tell me off about not looking after myself properly.  I sat there while she stood over me and I was scolded in the way that a parent might tell off a child.  I simply answered with "Yes Madam", "No Madam" and "Sorry Madam".  It was pointed out that since i still hadn't fully learned my lesson from the previous weeks I would spend the night again with 'my friend David' secured in me.

Madam handed me 'David and I was told to lift the hem of dress and the underskirt and to give a comparison of my caged clit compared to the 7" of David.  Madam pointed out that if I continue to ignore her direction she may show this photo to Miss Ellie.  I was made to explain to Madam the difference between 'David' and my cage clittie and why I am cuckold.  Madam had decided that i would also have to endure some more verbal humiliations alongside my physical punishments.

I was told to turn around and present my arse to Mistress.  I was told to remove my plug and to set it to one side.  Madam had taken 'David' and was applying lube to it as I knelt and I expected her to insert it into my recently emptied hole.  That was not going to be the case.  Madam handed me the dildo and I was told to put it into myself.

As I started to insert it, Madam told me to take my time with putting 'David' into my arse, I should take time to slowly fuck myself with 'him'.  As I put 'him' into my hole I followed the instructions given by Madam, and was constantly reminded that it was me that was mounting David, that I was fucking myself with David.  

Once Madam was satisfied with my efforts and as she pointed out she didn't want me getting too carried away but just enough to be excited and frustrated, she handed me the harness that I would wear to ensure that 'David' stayed in place for the rest of the evening.

I put the harness on and adjusted it.  Madam checked that 'David' was seated correctly on the harness pad and I was then told to turn around.   
Madam made me sit down and this made 'David' push fully into me, she checked the front straps and then fitted the padlock.  I was now secure.  

I was told stand and Madam gave me a further inspection and was content that the harness was fitted correctly.

Madam handed me the keys to the padlock and I was told to take them to her bedroom and place them on the nightstand next to her bed, and that I was not to dally!

When i returned back downstairs Madam was in the kitchen and she had placed my dinner on the worktop and one of the stools next to it, she had removed the cushion from the stool and I was told that I was to sit and have my meal.  Again as I sat  down the harness pushed 'David' fully into me.  As I had my meal Madam would chat with me, she would suggest that should get up and go and get something and then come and sit back down.  Once i finished dinner I was made to wash my plate at the sink but again do it by sitting on the stool.

this was the pattern for the rest of the evening.  I would be doing some of my tasks and then be summoned to the living room and then made to sit of the stool while Madam would chat with me.  This continued until bedtime when I had to go up to her room and turn down the bed and then wait until she was ready to go to bed and only at that point was the harness unlocked.

Throughout the evening Madam continued with her verbal humiliation of me, and I'll admit I was a bit of a leaky mess by the end of it.  Madam knows exactly what she is doing and it is a fine art the way that she can humiliate me knowing what will turn me on. Is it wrong that I so love her doing this to me?

As for her showing the photos to Ellie and David?  Well it is possible, but she may not tell them the significance behind each photo...or the whole significance of it.  I probably need to be on my best behavior, and also make sure that I look after myself.

It is Madam's Orders after all!




01 March 2024

Madam's Valentines Weekend (and my tasks)

Having had a lovely valentine's day with Madam, and being downsized in my chastity, it was now a case of getting ready for Madam going away for the weekend with Sir.  Madam had booked the Friday off  and as directed I had planned to do my normal Friday tasks and to keep my afternoon schedule fairly flexible.

so on Friday morning neither I or Madam knew where she was going or the weekend, Sir had it all organised.  Madam knew it was going to be an AirB&B for accommodation for the Friday and Saturday night and that she would be out for dinner each evening and out during the day. 

I helped her pack her bag in the morning, and then went and changed so that I could go for the weekly grocery shopping, Sir arrived just before I was leaving and came in for a cup of tea, so I said cheerio and headed off into town.

I got back about 11.30, Madam and Sir had left and I found a wrapped present on the kitchen work top, a selfie stick to use with the phone that we use for doing some of our photos.  There was also a note from Madam telling me that she had packed a bag for me and it was on my bed (it was padlocked with a combination padlock) and the note also told me to pack an overnight bag with my toiletries and towel, a change of underwear, some male casual wear and bring the camera and phone, with the self stick.  I was told to wait for more information.

At 1.30pm I received a whatsapp message from Sir telling me to get my bags and head to a hotel near Cambridge (address supplied) and ask for a room that had been booked for "billie Watson". I was to message him to let them know when I arrived.

I got there eventually, despite the Friday traffic, checked in and was told that a room had been booked by my "Boss".  The room was very nice, I dropped my bags and sent a message.

Madam sent me a reply, with the combination for my bag and also with my 2 tasks for the evening.  These were to involve taking a couple of sets of photos, both as part of a bigger task.  Unfortunately I can't go into details at the moment until the whole of the tasks have been completed.  The tasks involved a few sets of photos and a few changes of clothes, by the time I had finished both tasks I was ready for bed. That was my Friday evening.


Saturday morning I got a message from Sir telling me to check out of the hotel and to be at a certain Coffee shop in Cambridge by 10.45am and to get myself a cup of tea and just wait and watch.  At 11am(ish) a couple came into the coffee shop holding hands, and very close to each other. They ordered and went to the other side of the room  and sat down, yes it's Madam and Sir.  

When Madam sat down you could just see the welts of her stockings. They were sat having their coffees for about 20 minutes and during that time I got a few very cuckold/ humiliation related whatsapp messages from Sir.  I had another cup of tea and just watched them from the other side of the room.  They finished and left and I got my next whatsapp delivered instructions to go and do some shopping and get Madam a pair of black panties and black stockings suitable for her to wear for going out for dinner with her boyfriend.  I was also told to go to a certain pub at 1pm to have lunch, but to order from the bar menu, no alcohol, just soda water.


Madam and Sir appeared at 1.15pm and it appeared that they had booked a table in the dining area. I moved to a seat where I could see them better and they could see me.  Once they had finished their lunch I was messaged to go and enjoy some sights of cambridge and get my daily steps in (I've been increasing my walking as part of fitness/ weight loss programme to help with my health improvement.)

At 5pm I got a message that "Madam's maid" was expected this evening and I was sent an address and where to park - this was the Air B&B that they were staying in - to which I got back to my car and headed there.  I grabbed my bags and went into the building, they had the loft apartment at the top of the block, very nice.  

I was sent to the spare bedroom to get changed down to my underwear that I had on under my street clothes.  Madam came to the room and told me what the plan was for the evening.  I would help her get ready, then I would then drive them both to the restaurant that they were booked into and then come back to the apartment.  Once they were finished they might go for a drink but they would get a taxi back to the apartment. 

Madam had packed my dark blue jacket, my sheer trousers and black shoes in one of her bags, so that I would look appropriate as their driver.  She told me to wear the white sheer blouse that was in my bag. 

The jacket just covered the top of my sheer trousers and Madam made the point that I was not to wear any panties so my new pink chastity cage would be on display if my jacket was open.  Also the blouse was a white "pussybow" type of blouse, so there was no way to try and claim that it was a normal shirt, it was very clear what it was.  Once dressed I was sent to get my car from the parking area at the back of the apartment, I brought it round to outside the apartment ready to pick them up, but I had to come in to let them know it was outside.  Madam had handed me one of my face masks as I was leaving so I suspected that at some point there would be photos taken. As I came back into the apartment block Madam was at the bottom landing of the stairs and took some photos with her phone as I came in and some more at the top of the stairs.


Before we left Madam gave me a particular task to do when I got back from dropping them off at the restaurant.  The apartments had a Lift and I was tasked to get dressed in skirt and blouse and take a set of photos next to the lift, one of the photos had to show my chastity.  (you all have to thank Poppet Subslut for this as she has been badgering me to do this type of thing for ages and Madam had picked up on this and so I was duly tasked.....Thanks P!!!!)

With both of them ready I got them out of the flat and drove them into the town centre to the restaurant and then headed back to park up and get back to the flat.

Now the thing is that the whole experience was nerve wracking as the other flats in the apartment block were occupied and I could hear people moving around.  so the there was a constant risk that one of them would come out into the corridors or landings or even use the lift!.

Once I was back in the flat I got changed for the task   When ready I had to get out of the apartment and go across the landing next to the door of the lift.  I'll admit I was bloody nervous as there were people coming and going from the ground floor flats, I was very conscious of the sound of my heels on the floor and every noise from downstairs.  The things I do for Madam!  Here are 2 of the photos, I was using the selfie stick and was still getting used to it.  I'm sure I'll get better with it with more practice!


With the photos taken, and task complete I was safely back in the flat.  

A few hours later I got a message telling me that Sir and Madam had just ordered a taxi and they would be back in 15-20 minutes and that I was to be waiting by the door with some wine for my Mistress and her boyfriend. I was told to be in my pink cuckolding outfit.

I got a message telling me that Sir and Madam had just ordered a taxi and they would be back in 15-20 minutes and that I was to be waiting by the door with some wine for my Mistress and her boyfriend. I was told to be in my pink cuckolding outfit.

I had to rush to get changed and dressed, I was about halfway through getting ready when another message arrived telling me that they were about to arrive and that I was to be ready with my panties lowered so that Sir could see my new chastity (he hadn't really seen it earlier.) so it was all a bit of a rush to get finished dressing. The message also said that I was to have the door to the Flat fully open so that I could be seen as they came up the stairs (and anyone else for that matter) - I was to be exposed again!

I added my face mask to my outfit as I figured that there would be photos taken.

There has been a few additions to the cuckolding outfit. One of which was the modification of the front of the dress, this was based on the suggestion from Poppet. I've added a series of press studs on the inside of the front of the dress so the front can be clipped up to have me on display or dropped if Sir wants me covered.

Madam had found a pair of pink heels in a charity wedding shop in Milton Keynes, I dread to think what the wedding or bridesmaid dress looked like if these were the shoes for it, you can see they are all very pink!.


Madam also got me a pair of pink garters, one for my leg and the other for a choker, as well as a pink wig just to complete things. All very pink! The last addition to the outfit was a pink corset, a gift from kerri.

Knowing that they were on their way into the building made me rush, I got the wine poured, the front door of the flat open and into position with the tray ready for Madam and Sir. I was now stood there with the flat door open and my caged clittie exposed to anyone that popped their head round the corner.

The relief that I had when the sound of people on the stairs turns out to be Madam and Sir! Madam had her phone out and photos were taken.

Yes I know my socks aren't right and when I pushed down the pantie bloomers it moved one of my stockings, also the bow in my hair wasn't square on, so all of these errors in my dress were pointed out to me so that they could added to my review book for thursday night, when my bum would be made to suffer for my lack of attention to detail.

Sir, gave me a good inspection particularly the new cage and that resulted in a lot of verbal humiliation.

I spent the evening carrying out maid duties, both in my exposed dress and also later I was directed by Madam to remove my dress and to serve just in my underwear. When not required I was put in the corner of the living room, with the occasional comment directed at me about how pink suited me.

Eventually with the bottle of wine finished Madam and Sir retired to their bedroom and I was dismissed to my room with the instruction to keep my door open so that I could hear what they were up to and incase I was needed. I was also told that they would be having a lie-in in the morning so there would be no need to make breakfast.

My services were called on once during the night, for both Sir and for Madam.



In the morning I was up and on the go for 8am, with having made some tea when Madam appeared, I provided her with a cup of coffee and she sat down with me and asked if I had been alright with the weekend and also with the elements of exposure. It was a fair question and I explained that while I was very nervous (ok I was more than nervous) about the whole thing I did get a buzz from doing it. I explained that I wasn't sure about doing it too often but I would probably be ok with the occasional bit of exposure.

We chatted for a short while and I made Alice another cup of coffee for her and a tea for John. I asked what the plan was for the day and I was told that once I was ready I could head back home and Alice and John would be back later in the day, they were going to have a bit of a trip out to a few places around Cambridge and then grab a pub lunch somewhere that John knew of.

so once Alice headed back to the bedroom I went and grabbed a shower, dressed and packed my bags to head home to wait for them to come home later on.

The weekend was far more interesting than I had expected, considering I thought that I would be at home all weekend receiving updates by whatsapp, so being involved was great and my forced exposures were nerve wracking but yes I'll admit I did quite enjoy the element of risk to it (Poppet you have a lot to answer for!). I'll have to see what my next set of tasks are!

10 June 2020

A week of preperations

The previous week has involved a bit of work to get things ready for Madam and Sir going back to work.

I've spent a couple of days working with John to get his offices and workshop area all set up for his people to come back to work.  the building that he has isn't too bad with 2 individual offices coming from a main office on the first floor and the store and workshop area on the ground floor.

The main office has plenty of space for his team to be kept apart but for added re assurance I fitted some Perspex screens to each of the desk areas for him. So his staff have a semi enclosed area but still have visibility across the office.  we've increased the size of the table in the break out area where they do collaborative work in the corner of the office, this keeps the space and people apart.  John has his office which didn't need anything and the second office that is used by his HR/ admin woman is fine as well so long as she just deals with one person at a time.

That was most of the effort on Monday and Tuesday, with both John and myself using our own cars to come and go to collect stores and fixings.  by the time we had all of the screens in place it was about 6 pm so we picked up the tools and called it quits.

Wednesday had me back in billie mode, with Sir sending me over to the office in wig, skirt, blouse and heels to tidy up after the "workmen" had been in.  I provided breakfast for everyone and cleaned up after everyone was finished, and then went and changed out of the maids uniform into a blouse and skirt.


I was given the keys and told to lock myself in so that I wouldn't be disturbed, before I left Madam check to make sure that I was still wearing my butt plug.  The drive over is always a bit nerve wracking but the bottom line is don't rush and don't do anything stupid on the road (and try and keep and eye out for the idiots (they are everywhere!).

So having got there for about 10am, I locked myself in to the offices and started the tidy up of the mess that had been left after the construction works.  Once done it was a case of quickly dust down each of the work areas and then hover the main office before dealing with the toilets.

Madam and Sir came over at 1pm with some lunch and we all sat down for something to eat, all very civilised.  Sir took the bags of rubbish out to his car to take to the tip and Madam asked what I still had to do, which was do a clean of the workshop and store, the tea room/ kitchenette and then the 2 small offices.  I told Madam that I thought that I would be done about 4pm.

Madam told me that she would be back with Sir about 4pm, they would be going to get some tea and coffee for the staff and also to get some new cleaning materials for the cleaners cupboard to replace what I had used.  I was told not to leave until they came back, if I finished early then to send a text.

The Workshop and store didn't need much work as it is a fairly open area were 2 people work, so there wasn't too much to do other that a sweep out and mop of the floor.  I sent a text at about 3pm that I was nearly finished and Madam replied that they would be back shortly.

Sir and Madam appear about 3.20pm and I was just finishing the last bits in the HR/ admin office.  Both Madam and Sir went and dropped of their purchases and then made a cup of tea and headed to Sir's office while I finished off.

I straighten my clothing up and went to join Sir and Madam in Sir's office.  they were chatting through the plan to have a couple of the staff back into work on the Thursday and then the remainder in on the Monday.  Madam asked me if I would miss my weekly trip to help with the office work with Sir and I did say yes.  Madam must have spotted something in my reaction or my blush.

"Are you going to miss the chance to come out all dressed up or is something else that you are going to miss......?"  yes there was a slight pause before I responded.

"both Ma'am."  I must admit I did say it a bit sheepishly

"Its what I love about you billie, I've created quite a tart, haven't I?"

"Yes Ma'am."

"I think John is also going to miss your help in the Office as I don't think his HR lady is going to come in each afternoon at 3 o'clock to 'help him with his report' is she billie?"

"No Ma'am"

I was very aware of Sir chuckling and his comment was "not without a harassment case occurring and I'll not tolerate that type of behaviour in the company!"

"That's why you need Ms Watson, John, she fills a gap in your team, a sissy PA or secretary, obviously not full time but I'm sure that she can still come and provide assistance."

"billie lift your skirt, dear, lets have a look at you?" Madam check the front of my knickers and yes there was a damp patch.

"Well dear husband, why don't you go over to my boyfriend and show me why he likes taking you to work with him as his secretary?"

I went over to Sir and he turned his chair side on to the desk and I knelt down, Sir had already undone his belt and I opened his fly and he shrugged his trousers and boxers down.  Sir was starting to stiffen when I took his cock in my hand.

Madam had moved her chair round next to Sir and was watching me directly.

"That's it Ms Watson, show me what your office skills are like...I want to see your skills dear, to see why John should keep you on the books.."

Having started to lick Sir and for him to harden, I now had him in my mouth and a hand lower down on his cock, sucking, licking and slowly stroking him.

Madam was now talking to me all the way through, encouraging me and also working on my humiliation need.

"take your time Dear, there is no rush, there is only us here in the office."
"that's it husband, show my boyfriend that you are the submissive in this relationship."
"I do love watching you suck John, Dear, you are very good at it...."
"That's it hubbie, try take a little bit more in your mouth and throat...."
"Make the most of this Ms Watson, it might be a while before you can come back to the office....

and on and on, humiliating encouragement as my Mistress Wife sat next to her boyfriend as I knelt between is legs in sexual submission.

"John, have you fucked Ms Watson over your desk?"  I almost choked when I heard that!!

"Yes I've done it a couple of time but usually when you've been away with work and I've decided to do a bit of late working, but not during this period, I've just had her come in a give me a blow job"

"you should do it a bit more often, it's quite empowering, I've fucked Ms Watson a couple of time over the study desk in the last few weeks.  but perhaps not today....let her have something to look forward to the next time she comes into work..."

Madam was quite right, she had taken to putting a strap on harness and one of her dildos in the bottom drawer of her desk.  the first time that she had fucked me over the desk was after I had been licking her during a Skype meeting and once it had finished she was clearly worked up and decided that she wanted me to come out from under the desk and that she would finish herself off by fucking me.

The second time was very different.  I think that Madam had had either a bad or frustrating day and she decided that I needed to provide her stress relief.  I was called to the office told to remove my knickers and with that she unzipped her skirt and let it drop to the floor.  I had the tube of ky tossed at me and told to get ready while she put on the strap on.  I very quickly lubed my bottom as madam can put on the strap on quite quickly.  Madam did fuck me very vigorously, this was very much a dominant using a submissive.  Over the desk, legs kicked wide Madam's hands on my shoulders and back to hold me down and her enforcing her dominance over me. (not very gentle but very much satisfying for me as a submissive - is that wrong??)

As Sir stated to get ready to cum he started to hold my head and control what I was doing more and as he did reach orgasm he held my head still and filled my mouth.  I've done this many times now and I know that I have to try and swallow some of it, quite quickly as there is often quite a bit of cum and semen.

Madam continued her verbal humiliation of me and it still embarrasses me to confess that it turns me on so much.  both Sir and Madam know how to push my erotic buttons (and again I ask is this wrong....?).

"You are very good at that, aren't you Dear? barely a drop lost.  I'm really please that I can share my boyfriend with my cuckolded husband."

"Now since you have got me all worked up I'm going to take John home and take him straight upstairs, if you can lock up here I'll see you back at home, we'll have dinner at 7 and wear the short maids uniform."  and with that Madam and Sir left (he was still doing up his trousers) as I still remained on my knees and watched them head back home.

I got up and straighten up the office, when and had a look at myself in the bathroom mirror, the wig needed adjusting and then locked up.  By the time I got home I could hear that Sir was entertaining Madam upstairs so I went to get changed and get ready for the evening.

Overall a busy start to the week and as usual there has been plenty to keep me occupied...….as a quite content and happy submissive cuckold.

everyone please keep and stay safe.

billie xxx




23 January 2020

An Evening of tasks from Madam and Sir - Part 3 my sleep suit.

Sir gave me a new outfit to sleep in as a Christmas present,

He had it made for me from a Lady that has made one of my maids uniforms.  Sir pointed out that it is a modification from an Adult Romper suit - now none of us are into the Adult baby fetish but what Sir asked for is lovely and really nice (if rather frustrating) to sleep in.

The sleep suit is a snug fit and you put it on by stepping into the neck as there is no snap openings at the gusset.  Sir told me that normally the bottom of the outfit is bigger to accommodate an adult nappy but he had the size reduced in the bum but with a bit of room for my caged penis in the front.

The suit comes with a short skirt attached to it but not enough to cover the gusset, either front or back.

Sir thought that by choosing black satin and white lace it would be an ideal outfit for a sissy maid to wear to bed.

The front of the suit is smooth and with the leg hole elastic being snug there is no access to get to my caged clit - so I can't "fiddle" with myself other than to rub myself via the satin cover and that on my caged area just adds to the frustrations.

Sir then had a special addition added to the outfit, as a personal requirement - there is a zipped opening , edged with lace, to allow Sir and Madam to have full access to my sissy hole.

As Sir pointed out this outfit can be worn when I'm invited to spend the night in Madam or Sir's bed they simply can "unzip" the back when they want to use me.

The interesting thing with the way that this sleep suit has been made is that if I unzip the back I still cannot reach through to my caged clittie.

I can verify that when open Sir and Madam can fully use my hole and as shown last night with my 2 middle of the night wake ups I just had to unzip the back, apply lube and then then ease my self onto my "Master".

As Madam posted yesterday, the outfit really works with the open crotch tights.  the MissO tights have a fabulous feel on my legs and are really silky, when combined with the satin it is a frustratingly sensually feeling outfit.

We'll definitely be ordering some more of these tights and Madam loves the feel - she wants a pair and I may get her a pair of the seamed version.

This is a lovely sexy outfit to wear and I'm very lucky that I have a Master that had this made for me.  Madam loves it and she is considering having another one made in a different colour but with a slightly shorter skirt - I wonder what colour she'll get me?

I'm still alive - and still caged.

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