21 November 2022

The Christmas Gift for John

 From Madam Alice:

Do you ever get stuck for Christmas Gifts for those special people in your life?  Then perhaps I may have found an option for you to consider.  I seriously think that billie will be considering it.

I do like erotic art and we have a couple of Jack Vettriano prints around the house. but it also means that I like finding other artists that deal with fetish and erotic drawings and pictures.



I have a number of fetish and sissy artists that I follow on Deviantart and every now and again I have a look at their favourites, one of the artists that I found via that route was this individual, 0formant0 , I really like the artwork and the story lines that go with it, some examples are here,




But as I looked through more of their art I came across these "Gift Cards" and my mind took a trip to the idea of having a set of these created for billie to give to John as a Christmas present, he/she often struggles to come up with an idea on what to get him and these seem ideal.






So the questions now is 
a.    do I make billie come up with the 3 choices on the gift card and then I select which one?
b.    Do I come up with the three choices on the gift card and let billie select one?
c.    Do I let billie select 3 choices and have them left unchecked so John can chose?
d.     or do I leave it to the twisted minds of those of you that read the blog to come up with the three choices and then see which one floats your boat?



20 November 2022

A Lonely & Frustrating Friday Night

 Evening Everyone, At the moment Madam is fully occupied with Sir, so I've been given some time to provide another blog post, Madam is keen that I catch up for with the blog after my period of not posting.



After my punishment on Thursday and having completed my blog post, I was sent to strip my bed and to get the camping mattress, which would be my bed until Madam says otherwise.  The mattress used to be used regularly when Madam was seeing her previous Boyfriend before Master John, that individual was a different type of individual and had a different take on the cuckolding relationship -  Not in a bad way, he just wasn't into having the husband interacting or around so I would be banished to the room that we had in the loft area until he left.  Thankfully Master John was more than happy to embrace the FLR and Cuckolding relationship that Madam wanted. However back to Thursday night.

With the mattress in the utility room I was allowed to have  my sheet and the single quilt, all the other bedding was stripped and locked away, the mattress from my bed I carried up to the spare bedroom upstairs next to Madam's room, just to make sure that I didn't try to sneak back into my room and sleep on the bed.

With my bottom rather sore from the punishments I actually wrote the blog post standing up in the kitchen. sleeping that nigh was a little bit uncomfortable as Madam had be quite sharp with the Riding Crop and I could feel the bruises forming.

I did managed to get some sleep during the night but was very much awake prior to my alarm going off at 5.30am, so I was actually quite glad to get up and start my day.  I took the opportunity to check my bum  when I went for my morning shower and while some of the red from the Ruler and Paddling was still there is was less, or perhaps it was just over shadowed by some of the bruises from the crop.  I washed, showered and shaved, and then got dressed to start the day.

there would be no maid uniform today but it was the black and white cleaners smock  with the addition of a small white apron, make up was minimal and underneath was a black corselette,  black knickers and plain top stockings.  I put my heels on and then went to start Madam's breakfast.

Breakfast would be a mug of filter black coffee, 2 rounds of wholegrain toast, buttered, a small bowl of muesli but with the milk for it in a small jug.  I went a collected Madam's tablet, turning it on so that it would be ready for her to start looking at the news or reading emails.  I picked up the tray, checked the time and headed up to Madam's room ready to enter at 6.30am.

I will be really honest, this is a routine that I have been doing for years for Madam, even before the FLR started I would take my wife breakfast in bed every morning.  this morning I opened the door with an element of trepidation.  The previous evening Madam had been really pissed with me and expected she didn't hold back with the punishments.  I had no idea how she would be this morning, so I was definitely on the timid side as I entered the bedroom and bobbed a curtsy, being careful with the tray that I was holding.  I genuinely didn't know what the response would be.



I was greeted by a just waking/ half yawn but friendly "Good morning billie, I'll have the coffee and the toast now and then go for the Shower".  I probably was a bit too eager with bobbing another curtsy and "Yes Ma'am".

On some mornings Madam likes me to crawl in under the bed clothes and help her become fully awake by providing oral sex for her, this morning I just wasn't sure.  I think Madam sensed my nervousness and told me to put the tray on the bed, and she then took one of the spare pillows from the bed and placed in on the floor next to her. I was told to kneel on the cushion next to her.  Madam had now propped herself up in bed with an extra cushion and told me to lean forward  and place my head on the bed next to her thigh, looking down the bed, and to just relax.


Madam started on her coffee and opened the tablet on one of the news sites, as she was doing that once her left hand was free she just started to stroke my head, just petting me while she had her coffee and ate her toast.

Madam, usually takes about 15 minutes to have her coffee and as she finished I was directed to move back a little so that she could swing her legs out of the bed, and as she sat on the edge of the bed right in front of me she said "Have you forgiven me for punishing you?"

"Yes Ma'am, all ways."

"Good then give me a small kiss to prove your forgiveness"


I made a move to rise and Madam placed a hand on my head and gentle kept me down and pulled me towards her open legs, with her free hand she lifted her chemis and exposed her glorious sex.  I leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on her.  Madam allowed me to linger for a moment  and then got up, telling me that was enough and it was time for her to get ready.  She headed to the shower and gave me directions that she wanted her Navy blue 2 piece suit, once of the creme blouses and a matching set of black underwear.  

I quickly rose and moved the tray to the side table and pulled the quilt straight (I would change the bedding later) and started to lay out the clothing for Madam.  I picked out a set of Charnos Bra, suspenders and knickers, along with a set of black lace top stockings.

As Madam got out of the shower I asked if she needed assistance, which she didn't and I was dismissed to carry out my morning duties.


Madam was dressed ready and down to go to work at 7.40 and I met her at the bottom of the stairs, I handed her the laptop bag and also her coat and was rewarded with a peck on the cheek and as Madam left to go to work her parting comment was "I'm in a meeting at 10am, do your corner time at 9.20, so that I can watch before I go into the meeting, BYE!"

The early session of corner time would work to both our advantage as it would mean that I would be complete by 9.50, this means I could go and get changed ready to go for the shopping and hopefully be back by 12.30.

The corner time went OK, I had set my phone up in the opposite corner of the living room and also set an alarm to go off at 9.50am.  I made the call and Madam answered  with a simple "Of you go!" and I responded with a simple "yes Madam". I headed off to my usual corner of the living room and placed my self in the corner looking at the wall.  It doesn't take long for the legs to start to ache, particularly in the calves, I was on 4" heels and while I am used to them, they do make  corner time uncomfortable.  The knack is to do small movements, particularly to stop the knees from locking.  Madam will tolerate these so long as they are only occasional to ease my knees.  My hands were placed behind my back so Madam could see them and to show that they were not figgitting.

I was really glad when the 30 minutes was up and I turn round and took a few steps to start my circulation again and then faced the camera and bobbed a curtsy to it.  I went to the camera and saw Madam smile at me, give a short wave and then she closed the call.

the rest of the day went almost to routine.  Madam's bedding changed, ready for Sir coming over, the en-suite cleaned and Sir's wash kit laid out ready, fresh towels put on the rails.

at 10.15 it was off to do the shopping and then back just after 12.30, all groceries put away, grab a quick sandwich and then make sure that the living room and the downstairs are neat, tidy hovered and dusted. 

My afternoon corner time was at 3pm and as I was about to finish Madam told me that she would ping me a couple of messages as Sir had booked a table at a local restaurant, normally they go out on a Saturday, but from all accounts a double booking had occurred and Sir had been asked if he would be happy to change to the Friday, which he was.  Madam whatsapped me with what she planned to wear for the evening out so that I could find it, Iron it if required and lay it out ready. 

The clothes would be one of her Basques, a Thong that would go with the Basque and a pair of her Fully Fashioned stockings.  Foot wear would be her Stiletto heel ankle boots, She also wanted her knee length leather skirt and one of her red or blue "Tops with the flouncy sleeves".  I found both tops and looking at them the Red one was probably the better choice.


The first part of the evening went as normal, Madam texting that she was leaving work, so I ran her bath ready for when she arrived home. I welcomed her home and let her know that all of her clothes for the evening were all laid out. Madam went straight to the bath as the dinner booking was for 7.30, a little earlier that what they normally go for so Sir would be arriving sooner than his usual 6pm.

Sir arrived at around 5.40pm and I opened the door for him, Madam was still in the bath.and I was going to take his bag but was directed to the living room.  Sir wanted to see what condition my bottom was in after my punishment.  the marks could still be seen, particularly the bruises from the crop.  Sir asked if I had learned my lesson, which I confirmed.  I was then ordered to get on my knees and get Sir ready for meeting Madam.  

(Point to note - if there is one thing that Sir doesn't need is any preparation or fluffing to get him Hard for Madam, he can readily get and maintain an erection but the act of kneeling and submitting to Madam's Bull Boyfriend continues to create my needed desire for humiliations and my emasculation as I suck on what is a cock that is significantly bigger that I would have been even on a good day).  

When Sir felt that I had done enough, he told me to stop and then turned and headed up the stairs to meet with Madam in the Bedroom.  I picked my self off the floor and went on with my duties.

Madam came down the stairs at 6.40 and called me to the living room and told me to go to my room, remove my domestics smock/ dress and my knickers, fit my ankle and wrist cuffs and come back to the living room.  I was also told to make sure that I went to the toilet before coming back. 

When I came back in one of the dining room chairs with a towel on the seat had been placed in the middle of the living room facing the TV, I was told to come to the chair and Madam gave me a quick once over.  I was told to bend over and she applied some lube to my arse and then picked up the vibrating Butt plug and eased it into my arse-hole. She turned it on and told me to sit down in on the chair, to which the pressure of the plug and it's vibration became very clear.

Madam took some short lengths of rope and secured my ankle cuffs to the leg of the chair and my hands were tide behind the chair (not pulling my arms together but secure to make sure that they wouldn't come forward.) She then took my posture collar and fitted that around my neck so that I fixed towards the TV.

The last thing was that she when out of the room and reappeared shortly with my over the ear blue tooth headphones, she popped them into place on my ears and turned them on.  They connected to the TV and I sat there watching the screen with the noise coming direct to my ears.  Madam asked if it was too loud and said probably too loudly that it was ok.  Madam then went and closed the curtains and the door to the kitchen and then went to the stairs and shouted for Sir.


A few minutes later I saw Sir and Madam come back into view and Sir was holding one of our gags and something else, he handed the gag to Madam and then went over to the TV, reached round the back and did something that became clear when he picked up the remote and changed the AV source that showed there was a USB drive attached.  Sir worked the remote and a list of files came up and he selected "Play all and just as it started he paused it.

Madam came forward with the gag but also produced a condom that looked recently filled, I was told to open my mouth but not swallow yet and the contents were poured into my mouth and then seal with the penis gag which was strapped in place. "Give everything a good coating billie and then you can swallow".



With that Madam kissed my cheek and told me to enjoy my "Movie Night" evening.  Sir pressed play and they both left the room, turning out the lights and pulling the door closed after them.

I was now in the dark, facing the TV, with a buzzing butt plug, a semen smeared cock gag and after a very intro of a blank title screen a film started of porn. For the next almost 4 hours I was faced with Cuckold porn and in between each of the films there were short clips of Sir and Madam or Images of Madam in her Lingerie (obviously taken by Sir). The evening was frustrating, humiliating and a significant turn on as well. I know that I was leaking and it was apparent that the butt plug clearly had been fitted with fresh batteries prior to it being fitted into me, and I was actively sucking on the gag in my mouth (as well as drooling).

Sir and Madam arrived back at what I found out later as nearly 11pm and quickly untied me from the chair and turned off the TV.  I was ungagged, unplugged and made to walk round the room , I saw that there was a big damp patch where I had been sat and I'm sure most of it had come from my caged clit.

Madam checked that I was OK, went and got me a drink of water and they both asked how my evening went?  The best reply that I could give was "frustrating."

Madam kissed me again and told me to go get a shower and go and get some sleep and with that I went off to my room to undress and tidy up and Madam went upstairs.

As an observation while the evening was lonely, frustrating and designed to create a humiliating turn on for a caged and plugged submissive, it was quite enjoyable in an "after the event type of way" and both Sir and Madam were keen to check that I was ok as soon as I was released, which says a lot about this relationship that we have. I  wouldn't swap it for anything!

billie xxx



  







17 November 2022

Update on Punishments


Madam has directed that I inform you all of the punishments administered this evening:

  • A severe verbal dressing down, for the disappointment  caused to my Madam for my lack of focus and tardiness.
  • For the lack of posts to the Blog site, Punishment by wooden ruler:
    • 6 Strokes to the Right Hand Palm
    • 6 Strokes to the Left Hand Palm
    • 12 strokes to the right arse cheek
    • 12 strokes to the left arse cheek
  • For Failure to keep my promise to Princess Poppet - 16 strokes with the paddle
    • 8 strokes to the right arse cheek
    • 8 strokes to the left arse cheek
    • a further 2 strokes to each arse cheek for not being contrite enough in my written apology to Princess Poppet
    • An apology given after each stroke - "I am very sorry Princess Poppet, I will not forget my promises"
  • For Failure to keep my promise to Princess Poppet - Reduction in submissive status
    • Duration of reduced status not disclosed but determined by Madam
    • All submissives will be considered of a higher status than billie and must be addressed with a title of Miss, Ms, Mr etc in front of their submissive name.
    • I am forbidden from using my bed for the period of my reduced status, I am required to use the foam camping mattress on the floor in the utility room
    • I will spend 2 periods of 30 minutes each day as corner time, for the period of my reduced status.  one in the morning and one in the afternoon.  If Madam is working from home then it will take place in her study.  If she is not at home then I will do it in my marked corner in the living room but set up my phone so I can be viewed via our "FLR" Whatapp group via a video call.
    • I will not be allowed to dress as Mrs Watson, Madam's housekeeper for the duration of the reduced status. I will only wear the "domestic House cleaner" uniform.  I may not wear any of my full maids uniforms unless ordered by Madam.
    • My phone privileges have been revoked for the period of my reduced status.  If I am contacted by any Family or friends I must get permission from Madam to answer or call them back.
  • For allowing my work to get out of hand and get the better of me - 8 lashes with the riding crop to my arse.
  • As a final punishment I was sent to the corner of her study for 20 minutes facing the wall, while holding the rear of my skirt up and with my knickers at my knees.

when my time was complete I was ordered to come and thank my Mistress, which I did by getting down on my knees and kissing both her feet.


I was then dismissed with the instruction of producing this blog post.  I am very grateful to my Mistress Wife taking the time to correct my poor behaviour and tardiness.




16 November 2022

An Update and an apology for lack of posts





I need to start with an open apology to everyone for my tardiness in having been so slow in providing a post or an update over the last 6 weeks. I aim to resolve this, to be more specific I am under orders from Madam to correct this.

Also Madam is upset with me over a number of other issues as well so I am not looking forward to my Weekly review tomorrow night, I am already aware that I will be receiving 2 formal punishments and I can realistically expect at least one further punishment, but I will explain more of these as we go through this post.

Please do not view this post as excuse making, it is more for context and scene setting rather than me trying to excuse my poor administration. Madam has every right to be “pissed off” at me and I am very glad that she has taken me to task over them.

I recently was asked to take on some work for an Education Organisation to review some of their working practises, their structure and also quite a lot of their online teaching content. While this wasn’t full time work it was a contract with some regular quantity of work on a regular basis, which having done OK work wise through Covid, this contract would give a good guarantee of work and income for the next couple of years. The aim was that this job would take up 2 days of the working week with a bit of occasional travelling to various training/ Teaching/ Education facilities (please excuse me, but I’m being deliberately vague). 

I started in August and spent most of September reviewing and auditing some of the training material and found some major issues so October became a month of going back to the bosses with initial findings and explaining that they have a problem, so the last few weeks have taken up more time than was planned trying to fix the most pressing problems to meet the start of the academic year, it has also involved delivering training to some teaching/ Lecturing Staff that are somewhat reluctant to change to meet modern technology and training/ teaching practices.

So what? - Angry Mick was back on the work front and coming home at the weekend was taking time for me to switch from my work personality back to my submissive personality. I didn’t notice but Madam did and so at the start of November I was ordered into Madam’s study and given a very strong dressing down and given 10 days to bring my work schedule back into line. Madam’s anger is justified as she explained it is her concern over my mental wellbeing and that she would not allow “Angry Mick to become a feature in our lives again. I am always touched by the way that she has my interests and health at the fore front of our relationship, even when she is tearing a strip off me.

This is the important part of everything for us, this Female Led Relationship that we are in was set up for my benefit and to provide a structure for My wife and I/ Alice and Mick/ Madam and billie to exist in a healthy, stable way. Our FLR is about both of us and involves both parties looking out for each other and I am very grateful to Alice my wife and Mistress.



So Madam has every right to be pissed at me. Over the last 2 weeks I have now brought things back into balance and work is far more stable and managed. Most of it is now back to being run from my home office in the garden by Ms billie, "my secretary”.

The second thing that has upset her was the fact that I had not provided an update to the blog.  It was made clear that posting the occasional social media post does not count. The blog is the important part, as we spent so long to reestablish it, Madam rightly feels we should make more effort with it. Madam asked me on Sunday when was the last posting the site and it was the 2nd of Oct, the fact that this was a post from Madam made it more of an issue. So for my tardiness I will receive a formal punishment on Thursday evening.


Madam had also asked if I had received any feed back from our Blogging friend – Miss Poppet (https://poppetsubslut.blogspot.com/ ) with reference a promise that I had made at the start of September. I confessed that I had not started the task at all. This really pissed Madam off and I thought better that trying to argue (you can't argue when you are in the wrong – Hey Kids there is a life lesson there for you!). Madam made it clear that I would receive a punishment for this serious infraction and that it would be very appropriate.

So what is the punishment? Well Madam contacted Miss Poppet explained the situation and requested that as she was the injured party that she should select my method of punishment and also the quantity of the punishment.

For my poor personal administration of not fulfilling a promise I have put a fellow submissive in a difficult personal position. So the following have been my punishments:

  • Miss Poppet has selected that I am punished by 16 strokes of the paddle.  

  • Madam directed that I fulfil my original promise to Miss Poppet and accompany it with a very grovelling apology, which must show my contrition. Failure to be suitably contrite would result in a doubling of my punishment.

  • Also Madam has imposed a lowering of my submissive status and that I must consider Miss Poppet my superior and address her as such for an unspecified period. ( this is a punishment method that Madam learned from Mistress Carol who uses it on her submissive husbandkerri, and I have been subject to it on two previous occasions over the years). Hence why I have been using the title of "Miss" in front of her name. 

  • Madam  will apply some changes to my routine for the period of my reduced status, Madam will inform me of these tomorrow evening at my review.

 So.....I can fully expect a significant dressing down tomorrow evening with a very painful set of punishments.  While I know that Madam will not pull any of the strokes, my gut feeling is that the punishments for putting myself in a position to allow the unhealthy "Angry Mick" side of my personality to reappear will result in Madam applying that extra bit of vigour into my correction.



It will be a lesson that I needed reminding of, and it will be a piece of tough painful love but I know that Madam is administrating it because she loves me and I love her.

To that end, everyone have a good evening, look after yourselves and look after the people that you hold dear, but most of all don't shed a tear for me as I deserve whats coming....     


17 Nov 22 - Update:

When I wrote my apology to PoppetSubSlut I used the term "Ms Poppet" but asked if using Ms was acceptible with her or did she have a preference for a  honourific title, she requested that I use the term "Miss".  

This morning there was an email requesting that, having had time to think on the situation and perhaps now understanding the implications of my reduced status, it was requested that I no longer use the title of "Miss" and use the term "Princess".

So as of this point I will be referring to her as Princess Poppet.

billie 

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