An Update from the Luff House

 From Madam Alice:

Afternoon Everyone,

we know that we have been very lax in our posts over the last 12 months, and for some people we have been very poor in our communication and responses to emails, for this we and particularly I am very sorry.

while we have made the excuse of the change of job, house move and our renovations - and these have been all true through to the end of 2025, the major issue that has now become obvious to me is that Mick/ billie hasn't been very well.

As many of you know he has had an ongoing health issue but we believed that we had that all in hand and managed with his weight loss, change of diet and also the retirement to reduce stress and also the strain of travelling.  We believed that all of this had things levelled out and the blood tests showed that we were starting to stabilise the condition

The problem is that Mick has continued to loose weight, more that the specialists would like, and while losing 6 inches from his waist is good, it is more that he was asked to do.  Also his energy levels have crashed and he is constantly tired.

The problem was that he has been driving himself hard to do work at our new home and while we believed that this work may be the cause of him being extremely tired at the end of each day, it appears that it isn't and that there is a bit more to it than that - more blood tests have been done, he has been told to rest and to try and get some more weight back on - and keep it back on.  The aim is to get his body back in balance and physical energy back on an even keel, it is proving a challenge for him.  I'm working from home a bit more to keep and eye on him and he has been banned from doing jobs and tasks for my family as they were consuming a significant amount of his time and energy, event to the point that he almost had an accident coming back home after helping a family member due to being so tired and drained.

To that end for the last month or so he has been put on enforced rest, slowing things down for him and also try and adjust make him feel and be better.

Sometimes I do despair with him but at other time I am always surprised how much he will commit to help others often to his own detriment, well yet again I have put my foot down to try get him to focus on himself and to accept that sometime he needs to selfishly focused on himself so that he has a quality of life and quality of health.  It will be a bit of a journey for him and us, but hopefully we can get him on the road to improvement.

Thanks to all of you if you have stayed with us and if you are expecting emails and responses you now know why there has been a bit of a delay or silence.

I hope that you will understand and please be patient with us.

Alice 

 

Stockings and trainers! Is this a fashion trend?

 Afternoon everyone, well we are well and truly into the new house.  While initially we were living and sleeping in the lounge while we started the redecoration and some of the conversion work, we have now actually been able to sleep in one of the bedrooms.

Madam's bedroom is well underway as that has been the priority and I seem to be smelling continually of paint at the moment.

With Madam very settled into her job and me being very focused on the renovations of the house, we decided to take some time out yesterday and go out for a sunday lunch in a local pub.  The aim was to give both of us a break from the work at home but also to start to see what there is locally to where we now live.  

While we know the area well geographically, and we are getting a handle on places to go walking, our knowledge of place to socialise and good places to eat are significantly out of date as the last time we really went out socially in this area was over 25 years ago.....and there has been some significant changes in that time.

so with a few online checking of reviews we headed to to chosen venue, a couple of miles away in a near by village.  The place was quite busy which was a good sign and it had a very good mixed crowd - old and young.  

Drinks were ordered and we watched some of the meals come out and they looked pretty good, so food was also ordered.

Lovely......

as we chatted, just normal vanilla stuff, Madam noticed a few younger women in skirts and wearing tights or stockings.  nothing unusual, particularly as the weather has changed to being a bit cooler and Madam was also wearing stockings and a Tweed skirt (oh how country folk we looked....) but where Madam was wearing a pair of knee boots with a block heel, she pointed out that these others were all wearing trainers.

This created a bit of a conversation between us, was this a trend? is it a fashion that we had missed.  

as we had our food there were a few more small groups and couples that came in and again several of the girls were wearing hosiery and trainers.  Quite a few of the younger women wear wearing fishnets.  

Then I noticed the next thing quite a few of them had seamed stockings/ tights, certainly more than just one or two.  At this point our conversation became even more serious as both Madam and I noticed that none of them had a straight seam amongst them.

Look we all know that keeping seams straight, particularly on stockings is a constant challenge, and when I'm required to wear seams it is an easy win for Madam if she is looking for something to pick me up for, but quite a lot of those that we saw yesterday were quite badly crooked and it was almost as if they hadn't straightened them when they put them on.

It gave us an interesting point to discuss, particularly as we both like our stockings and we both know what is involved in keeping them straight.  

So the question is - is this a trend and fashion to wear Stockings and trainers? and if they have seams does it matter if they are not straight? or is it simply a case that some people just don't care if they are straight?

The lack of attention to detail certainly annoyed Madam.

Changes but still here.

 Afternoon everyone,

Apologies for the very long gap in posting but the work life balance has been completely out of balance at the moment.

Some of you may know that we have moved house, or to be more honest, we are still in the process of moving.  Having gone through the stressful process of selling our house as well as finding a new home nearer to Madam's work.  Well we have found and purchased a home but be have a few more weeks before we can move in.

In the mean time we are staying with Madam's family, and daily life is very vanilla.  Most of our belongings are in storage and we are effectively living out of a number of bags.

At the moment we are staying with the Mother in Law (MoL) and it is becoming quite stressful for Madam, and it's not great on my side as I have a "Shadow" as I try and work from a small desk in her conservatory.  There is nothing remotely FLR about our current situation as the MoL would pick up on it immediately and she is quite a straight laced individual.

So what is the plan, well we move in to the new house in middle of september and while it is in very good condition we do want to make some changes, such as convert a small bed room to an en-suite for the Mistress Bathroom as part of it as a walk in dressing room.

Also the spare bedroom would become my room.  The kitchen needs work and there is the need for a home office for Madam and also one for me, we know what we want but we also know that we will do it over a period of time.  Madam wants me to be busy as I progress to a "semi retired" balance of work and home life.

Unfortunately it does mean that we'll be busy and the blog will take time to get back to what it was but bear with us and keep popping back to check for updates.

Madam sends her regards to all readers and is equally annoyed that we haven't got the stability that we had hoped for but hopefully that will change very soon. 

Purging the Wardrobes

 

Its' been a busy old period here in the midshire of England as Madam and I go through the process of trying to sell our current property and look for a new home back in our original home area of Leicestershire.  We have been faced with quite a few challenges least of which has been dealing with estate agents, If we hear one more time about how a specific property will be perfect for us and then promptly find that it is a 1 bedroom former Air B&B located 2 streets from Madam's sister I'm sure Madam will rip the throat out of the agent!  Bless her!

So while I have been very busy with doing renovations, repairs and decorating to make our current house meet all the expectations that a potential buyer might want and playing host to those that come for viewings, Madam has been enduring the occasional stay with her Mother when she is working up in the leicester area.

One of the things that this move has done is force us both to do a serious look at our wardrobes and drawers.  the reason being is that we are down sizing, we know that we are and we are also realistic to accepted that for both of us we will need to reduce the size of our wardrobes.

For me it has been straight forward for my vanilla work wear, there has been a few items into the Charity bag but generally it isn't too big a collection.

For Madam, she has had to look at what she needs for her work wear, in terms of Office smart and Office casual.  what has become clear is that she has had a clear out of quite a few shoes.  Her casual and social wardrobe is the one that has taken a serious hit as she went through it being quite ruthless and she thinks that she has quite a sensible clothing collection now.

What has taken quite a cull for both of us has been the FLR wardrobes and in particular has been my underwear drawer.

There has been a reappraisal of things such as thongs - when did I last were those? and anything that has a heavy lace front to it.  why the lace front? well the current Chastity cage allows my foreskin to pop out the end of it and it is like wearing a bloody cheese grater!  so those have gone!

We have also been realistic enough to look at some of the other items, particularly the Basques, for both of us that don't fit anymore.  Both Madam and I have lost weight and as such there is a few of the basques that just don't work anymore.

We have also looked at some of the outfits and also done a bit of rationalisation on things and got rid of things, either due to wear and tear, not fitting or in Madam's case "Did I really used to wear that? Oh no, time for that to go!"

It has been quite good to have this clear out and also to understand better what we have.  it also means that we also now have a better handle on how much stuff we have to move or to store (there is a real risk that we will be moving out before we have our new place so things will be going into storage.)

The other side of this selling your home process is the fact that we have people coming around the house to view it for a potential sale and as such we have had to make sure the place is "very vanilla" and that the overt signs of our FLR have been discretely tucked away.  I'll be honest it is a bloody pain but we are making head way.

We just need to find the right place to move to....and the chances are we'll do that without the overly helpful advice of the bloody estate agent!  

Update from both of Us

 From Madam Alice,

Evening everyone, we thought we would give a short update as we are a little behind in posts and blogging.

As many of you will know I moved into my new job full time at the start of April and this has seem me become a very busy bee, with a mix of travelling between various client and project locations and also with me working back in Leicester.  

What this has meant for billie is almost a reversal of roles, with him staying and working from our home in Milton Keynes.

Over the last 6 months we have been really looking at our life and the changes - in terms of work -  and we have decided that we are at a stage where we do need to change.

For billie it is a case of him slowing down and progressing towards retirement.  so this means a bit of a transition to semi retired and phasing out the high intensity work that has been his speciality for many years.  The phase out will allow him to finish commitments and work contracts and try and create a new routine for himself.

For me I am now full into my new job and an significant part of it is client engagement with their project teams and this means lots of the working week away from home in the Leicester, Derby, Nottingham area, while up to now I have been in temporary accommodation there is a need to become more settled.

So we are moving, currently we are house hunting in the Leicestershire area, with the aim to sell and move north from our current home.

While this is a move that eliminates a 1 hour drive for me, there are times on a Monday and a Friday that this becomes a 3 hour frustration of a commute.  We have also had to look at this in terms of the fact that it will move us closer to the family, my mother in particular and also nearer to Ellie and David.

We have been spending a lot of time over the last 18 months traveling up and down to Leicester for family matters and now with work that it was becoming obvious that we would be moving.

What does this mean for our FLR - well really no change.  Both Mick and I are both in agreement that the core part of our marriage is that of our FLR, so billie and Madam will remain and continue as the main part of the way that we live.

For our relationship with John, while there is now physical distance between us, it appears that this may well be a bit of a blessing for him as it means that he will be able to have less "formal" relationship with Myself and billie, and the distance may help to calm the "relationship questions that he has with one of his daughters.  so it will still work for all of us, it's just that John will not be a regular at our new place every Friday.

So at the moment mick/billie are being kept very busy with the preparation works for getting our house ready for sale.  He has already had a detailed survey done and is well on with everything that was highlighted as being required either for the sale or to help with the price.  Unfortunately it does mean that we have more of "Mick the builder" and not quite as much of "billie the maid".

The other aspect is that we have started the search for a new home and that comes with it's own trials.  We are downsizing as the current home was originally purchased as a place where we could continue to bring up our nieces if required (as my sister was still in remission for cancer at the time).  Well we don't need that amount of space now.  So long as we have some space for billie to sleep when John or Carole visit and I have a work area.  billie has already looked at what is required for an office in the garden so we know what we are looking for.  The bit in all of this that will be the challenge is finding a place that has the right amount of privacy.  So we are being quite selective on what we go and look at.

So that is an update from us, there is lots going on and we will try and get back into a productive and settled routine for posting, but just bear with us as we try and find that routine. 

 

Good News - Poppet's Back!! Now Back Up, Back Up, Back Up!

 After a very nervous few weeks, Poppet has received the the good news that her numerous appeals have finally been successful.

So her blog page is back and Poppet hasn't delayed with creating updates, so please go to her site and let her and Owner know that you've missed them

https://poppetsubslut.blogspot.com/

I know that Poppet will now be backing up her blog and getting that stored safe just incase there is another problem with the Blog, but my advice to everyone who has a blog is back up your blog so that if you do need to find a new blogging home then you can get that set up and then import your blogger posts into the new site.

I'm going to look at providing a dedicated post on the process that we followed when we lost our blog in the past.  Also there is a few other thoughts that I have on how to create a "back up bolt hole" for your blog.  Hopefully I can get that that pulled together and posted at the weekend.

But overall it is really great news that we now have Poppet back!  

Poppetsubslut's Blog site

 Dear All,

On Thursday we got some bad news and that was that Poppet's excellent blog had been taken down with no warning.

Poppet contacted me to let me know that there was a problem.  Blogger seems to have taken the site down on the ground of "Violence and Gore" with no notice or warning.   Now for those of us that have long been fans of the blog it doesn't fall into those categories.

Poppet has lodged an appeal and is waiting to see what the response will be.

However Poppet has asked that I let everyone one that both she and Owner are OK, somewhat Annoyed/angry/ confused etc, but they are both OK and hoping to get the appeal approved.

So to everyone, keep your fingers crossed and hopefully poppet will get the blog back.

For those of you that have a blog, please please please do regular back ups so that you have your site saved, so if you do need to move it can be imported to a new site fairly easily.

Should anything happen to this blog please book mark my back up site:

https://madamssubhub.com/

I will keep you updated with progress as and when Poppet passes the information onto to me.  Please keep your fingers crossed for Poppet and Owner and that they get the blog back.

 billie xxx

Amusing myself and entertaining my husband

 From Madam Alice

In my previous post I wrote about how I was trying to get used to this new way of working that I now have, the process of being away from home and my husband for 3,4 or 5 days at a time.  One of the challenges that I have struggled with is the fact that this work pattern has meant that the well established routines that billie and I have had has been completely changed.

Even coming home on a Friday means that you don't simply drop into the previous routine that you had. having discussed this with billie, he views it differently but I think this is due to him having more experience in doing this style of work.

However, I have not been content with this and I have decided that I will try and create another routine for the period that I am away.

Why? well I miss my husband and I don't want him to feel ignored or to to be lonely.

So I make a point of calling or messaging him each morning between 9 and 11am and this is not wife and husband , this is Madam and submissive time.

I want to know what he is doing for the day.

What is he wearing. I may tell him to go and change.  

I may ask him to send me a photo or to call me back immediately with a video call.

I may set him a task for the day or tell him to ensure that he has his phone on in case I send him a task.  These tasks may have a time limit for them to be completed by.  

For example if I know that he is in his office I may tell him to go and find a particular suspender belt from my bed room and bring it back to his office and send a photo of it on his desk and he has 4 minutes to do it in.  Failure to meet the deadline will result in a punishment at the weekend when I get home.

It is important not to set patterns as I want him to be on the back foot, but I don't want him to fail, I just want to make them challenging for him.

So this week I have been pandering to his love of being humiliated and emasculated. I know that I am spoiling him but I do love the way that he blushes and the fact that it does make his caged clittie try and get erect when I give him a special task to complete.

On Monday he was working from home he told me that he would be involved in a dial in meeting, no video, so as his evil Mistress I directed that he should spend the meeting just in lingerie and sat on a dildo. At two points during the meeting I managed to message him and he was required to send me a photo.

Tuesday, he was going to be working away from home, but we spoke just before he left and I decided that I didn't like what he was wearing under his clothes, so I made him go and do a complete change of his lingerie and stockings to something that I wanted him to wear, such as Open bottom girdle, different lace top stockings and the full brief panties with the sheer back to them.

Yesterday when I called he was going to have a day taking part in some on line meetings.  he was wearing a polo shirt and one of his knee length skirts. I asked what he had on underneath and asked him to show me, after a short chat I decided that the skirt was too long and that he must shorten it so that his stocking tops could be seen.  I also told him that for his meetings he must keep his camera switch on unless the person leading the meetings expressly told him to turn the camera off.

At lunch time I sent him a message to take some photos to show me the adjusted length of his skirt.

I also did a short session of verbal humiliation with him, something that causes some discomfort to his pathetically small caged clittie that hides in his sissy knickers.  As a parting task I required him to email me with his photos and also to send a brief confession to Kerri and to his dear friend Poppet on why I keep him in chastity and why I need the services of a lover.

Am I cruel? a little but I also know what my husband needs and as I'm not at home to meet those needs I think that this daily tasks and checks on billie do both of us good.

As a parting task to those that read our blog, I ask that if any of you feel inclined you can leave a short humiliating comment for billie, my emasculated submissive cuckold, and I will get him to tell me which ones are the most appropriate.
 

Changes and Absence makes the heart grow fonder....

 From Madam Alice:

I know that I have not written for a bit of time but that is due to a number of things, mainly as Blogger still has restrictions on my account, so I'm doing this post via billie's account.  the other thing is the fact that work is creating changes in our lives.

While this may sound bad, it isn't the end of the world but it has made me realise that there has been some things that I have taken for granted for a very long time.

Over the years there has been times when billie has worked overseas and away from home for extended periods of time.  He has done this to provide for me and also for members of my family.  there is a lot been done to ensure that we have a comfortable life.  We are not rich by any means but it has meant that my sister and her children have had a home and that I have been well looked after.

When ever the opportunity arose Mick (billie) would come home to me and I have to say he would be enthusiastic to see me explaining how much he missed me and at times it was all too much, and on such occasions I would 'snap' at him to calm down.

I know he missed me and I know that he genuinely loved coming home to me, but for me , at the time he was coming back into my carefully established routine and creating waves and changes rather than just slotting into the routine that I had.

Why am I writing about this?  Well for the last few weeks I have found myself working away from home.  This isn't like being on a visit or away on a training course, but actually spending Monday to Thursday/Friday living out of a bag.  And it is likely that this will be my working pattern for some time to come.

Now this isn't a complaint about the work, the work is great and I am really enjoying the challenge of it.  I also love the fact that Mick/billie is so supportive of me doing this.  The thing is I am starting to understand why my husband was so enthusiastic when he came home.

Spending time away from home, with its routines and my things, and my space and most of all being away from my husband makes me want to get home to him.  I miss him, I miss him alot.

Now I'm only a few hours away from him, I can call him.  but when I go to bed tonight he isn't there to come and join me and to cuddle in behind me, he isn't there to put an arm around me to make me feel safe and wanted.  I know I'm the Dominant in our FLR but I miss being cuddled and hugged by my submissive.

And he isn't there to wake me with his tongue in the morning!

To put it simply I miss my husband and I can't wait to get home to him tomorrow evening.

I now know why he was so enthusiastic to come home to me.  He did far longer away, when phone calls were more expensive and mobiles weren't quite the technology that they are now.

I also shudder to think about the restrictions that he had when living out of a bag when he was in the Middle East or working in Germany.

So I have a respect and understanding for my husband and I have a bit of guilt for 'snapping' and losing my temper with him when in reality he was just overly keen to let me know that he loved and missed me!

So does this mean that I'm going to stop doing this job? well that is one option, but there are others, but it isn't for me to impose them.  

Billie and I have had several chats, with him advising me on how to deal with this work style of being away.  I also want to know how billie feels about it and what he thinks. So we will see how things progress.  

  Just as a final piece - billie and I had a very lovely valentine's day together.  it was good to spend time with him and he did pamper me.  

I did resolve his frustration issues, with a very long session of edging which ultimately resulted in a rather spoilt orgasm for him which he was very grateful for.  And while this may all sound even more frustrating what you have to remember is that my husband gets incredibly turned on by humiliation and also by...Me! so having a long evening of edging fun was very wonderful for both of us.

Knowing me too well, a blast from the past!

 Morning Everyone,

I'm home alone at the moment as Madam has been away with work for a few days and it has involved her being up north learning about her new jobs and meeting the various clients and such like, so yesterday rather than spending a long trip being stuck with the heavy traffic she decided to stop off and see her mother for the evening.  I'm expecting her back about lunch time today.

Despite Madam being away, I have not been left unattended.  Madam has kept me occupied with tasks and checking in via calls and whatsapp messages.

My frustrations have continued and I have found that Madam currently has no plans for a let up on this.  

For example I am required to have a pint of squash/ water prior to going to bed, which invariably means that I will need to get up at some point during the night for a pee.  Madam has set the rules that once I have got up and done my business I must then take some time (generally 15 minutes - Madam lets me know what duration she wants) to fuck myself on the dildo of choice for the evening - Madam makes that choice for me prior to going to bed.

In the morning I've also been required to orally serve the dildo for a set period and then mount myself on it and to use Madam's words "slowly enjoy myself" as a morning wake up.

so at the moment, even without Madam being present she continues to ensure her control over me and her torment of me. 

Earlier this week I found myself visiting a company that a very old friend of my was working at.  I had delivered training to them in the past and they wanted some more later in the year, so I was invited up to discuss the requirements, while there I asked if my friend was still with the company and found out that he was working in the offices that day so I made a point of going and saying hello to him.  

We'd worked together several times but our main jobs together had been in Germany, many many years ago.  

We had a great catch up and he made the offer to buy me lunch (He insisted and I think the company picked up the bill).  Lunch was great and it was good to hear that him and his wife were doing well as were his kids.  He asked about Alice, how was life etc and I explained about my plan to reduce some of my work commitments.  We both had a laugh about things and that it wouldn't be a bad thing to reduce work loads, he had done something similar  a couple of year earlier.

With lunch over he drove me back to the office in his car and as we were traveling it was clear that the music was from an 1980's mix.

"Who's that playing?"

"Oh, it's Duran Duran, it's 'the Chauffeur'.  I'm reliving my youth"

"Bloody hell, that's a while ago for both of us!"

"I would have thought you would have this as a personal favourite on you play list Mick."

"I though you knew me?, I'm not particularly into Duran Duran, it's not my thing I'm more rock and metal."

My friend laughed, "I know bloody too well what you were into, the amount of time we spent in that Rock bar in Germany!  It's not the music or the band, I would have thought it would have been the music video that would have got it on your play list!"

I must have looked lost as I didn't have a clue what he was on about. "Nah, you've lost me on that! I've not heard this one before."

"When you get home, go a google for the official video of 'The Chauffeur" by Duran Duran and then tell me that I don't know you well enough!"

Having got back to the office and said farewells, with a promise for us to catch up for an evening out - and it was a genuine offer as Alice hadn't seen him and his wife in years, so it would definitely be good to catch up again, I headed back home.

I got back and finished off the few bits of paperwork that I needed to close out my work.  With that complete, my curiosity got the better of me and I went to YouTube to find what my old friend was on about.

The Chauffeur - Official Video

Sooo....Yup, my old mate was right he knew me really well, while I may not be a Duran Duran fan this video really ticks the all boxes for me.  When you are someone with a stocking fetish... this ticks way too many boxes, and the the element of power play and ...and ...and ...and ....

How did I miss this video when it came out in the 80's?  I know that it wouldn't have been on Top of the Pops (you'll know why once you watch it!) but I'm sure someone would have mentioned it......oh well, I've found it now and yes I'd definitely have it on my play list now!  I sure that Madam would enjoy it as well.  

I sent a text to my mate with the simple message "Yes, you were right, you do know me too well!"

he used to chuckle at me that I went to a lot of trouble to get Alice good quality stockings prior to each of my trips back to the UK.  when he finally met Alice and saw that she did wear seamed stockings regularly he absolutely got why I went to the effort for her.

and years later I am trapped by my own fetish....and thoroughly enjoying it.

Watch the video, I'm sure you won't be disappointed.

A Month of Frustrations

 I'd like to say "thank god that january is over" but there would be no point, it wasn't January that was my problem.  My problem started in December and I think my problem is extending into February.

So what is the problem?  Well as mentioned in my posts about christmas I was put back into chastity on the morning of the 28th December.

OK, so what?  Well when Mistress Carol and kerri visited I was caged but so was kerri.  Now in the past one of us, usually kerri is unlocked, not this year.  We both remained caged, we shared a bed together, but Madam and Mistress added to our torment by ensuring that we could have sex with each other.  

We were given a strap-on with a dildo - some of you have already guessed it, it was the 7" dildo called "David".  The rules were that we could use it at any time we went to bed and if we came then that was fine we just had to let Madam and Mistress know in the morning.

Madam and Mistress took great delight, once Ellie and David had left on New Years Eve, to torment and tease the pair of us.  In my twisted submissive nature of enjoying the humiliation it was wonderful but incredibly frustrating.  It was the same for kerri as well.

What was probably worse for kerri is that she spends a lot less time caged, so going uncaged and then caged can mean that the early stages of being caged can take and bit of time to get back into the rhythm of things.  So we were a very frustrated pair of submissives and the strap on was getting a lot of use.  

And to be fair I can say that Madam's main strap-on harness and dildo was probably getting a lot of use between her and Mistress Carol as well!

Once into the New Year and we had the house to ourselves and it was back into the routine.

As per last year, Madam had set me a number of challenges, some specific for her and some for other people - you know who you are 😉, but one of the things that seemed to be a very regular task was being fucked by the dildo of Madam's choice.

Now Madam has had a busy month with work and training for her new role, there has been a lot of travelling which often mean either early mornings or late evenings.  But Madam has used me throughout the month to relieve her stress and work frustrations by using her strap on and bending me over.

Early on in the month Madam made a point of banning me from using any of my jewelled metal butt plugs as she felt that they didn't have a big enough flared base.  Also I was having to make sure that I was clean with regular enemas and douches, just in case that Madam felt the need to use me for stress relief.

It also wasn't just Madam using the strap on, there would be times when I would be pottering about in the evening finishing things or having finished tasks I would be sat reading and Madam would ask what I was doing and then tell me to go and spend 30 minutes with one of the toys.  some times she would specify which one, generally it would be "David" or "Master" and often she would also add instruction if she wanted me to orally serve another dildo as well.  If I was really lucky she would tell me to bring it to where she was so that she could watch me and occasionally join in by using my mouth and tongue.

So what was the result - a very very frustrated and horny submissive that has been leaking a lot!.  The amount of panties for the wash this month has been significantly more that usual!

With the end of January I though that this would see us going back to the normal pattern, but that wasn't the case.  

With Sir visiting us this weekend Madam decided that I would ensure that I had spend 30 minutes with one of dildos prior to doing breakfast and later in the afternoon when she planned to have some fun with Sir I was sent to the "Cupboard" so that I would disturb Sir and Madam.  

We've not used the cupboard in this way for a while but it was set up quickly, I was down to my lingerie and I had my bluetooth headphones and the hood.

Madam checked that the earbud headphones had connected to her tablet and that the hood was postitioned correctly with it blindfold over my eyes and the mouth open correct.  My arse was well lubed as was the dildo on the chair (Point to note - if you do set something similar up and you are going to be in one for a while then use loads, and I mean lots of lube!!)  Madam guided me in and made me ease myself down onto the stool and then secured my ankles to the lower restraints before guiding my head down onto the smaller dildo on the wall and then securing me with the collar.  Hand behind my back and then secured to the rear wall.  This was adjusted so that I have enough movement to fellate the wall dildo without it leaving my mouth and that I can raise myself a short amount on the seat dildo.

With Madam happy I was ready and that I would not disturb her and Sir she shut the doors.  A few minutes later I started to get music in my ears which then eventually transitioned to the sound sex and fucking, this transitioned to what was clearly a audio track of a Mistress doing "small penis humiliation" to a unknown submissive and then another humiliation track and then a bit more music and then more sex noise and on and on.

The really devilish thing about the "cupboard" is that you just can't sit still, you can't ignore the dildo in your mouth.  with your hands behind you and pulled back as you start to suck the cock, you start to rise off the dildo in your arse and then so on and so on.  so in very limited and restricted way you create your own maddingly frustration as you suck and fuck yourself!

When Madam came and let me out about an hour later there was quite a bit of leakage, as some of you can probably imagine!

That was yesterday, is February continuing in the same way?  Well it appears so.  This morning when I went to bring tea and coffee to Sir and Madam in the Madam's bedroom I found that she was up and waiting for me, and by that I mean that she was already wearing her strap on.  I was told to put the tray down and and bend over the end of the bed.  I was told to keep eye contact with sir as Madam once again applied lube to my bum and to her strap on and then proceeded to fuck me infront of her Boyfriend.  Once she was satisfied (and I wasn't) I was dismissed and told to use the time to update the blog, so here I am, very well fucked but incredibly frustrated submissive husband!

So far since Christmas, so much leakage but no orgasm or sissygasm!  lets see what the rest of February has in store!

  

Christmas Part 2 - Visitors at home, Ellie & David

Traditionally we normally have a few days at christmas as "our time", just Mick and Alice/ Madam and billie. it's our chance just to relax, unwind and just to connect.  Thats what we did this year we just took a couple more days that normal -Christmas eve through to the morning of the 28th.

We took time to unwind and relax.  We went walking locally, not too far but enough to get out of the house and get some fresh air.  This was mainly vanilla time with husband and wife out enjoying the countryside and we chatted about a whole lot of things, we also chatted about serious stuff and also trivial rubbish.  It was great.  Madam made a point of me getting a refresh on my Shapewear as a christmas present, particularly as I've been wearing it all regularly over the last 12 months.

I was uncaged through until the morning of the 28th, and while it might seem that I would have been desperate to make love to my wife (I was quite desperate...) it was just nice to be able to cuddle with her and spoon in bed without being constrained.  It wasn't all being "Mick", I was always wearing panties and stockings of some sort and I always went to bed in some form of female night wear.  I was very fortunate to make love to Alice on a number of occasions.  Just as Alice made a point of fucking me with the strap on of her choice.

Ellie and David would be our initial visitors and they would be with us until the 31st and they would go and have NewYear with David's family.  From our point of view it was going to be really nice having them with us at our place, we seemed to have spent so much time travelling up to Leicester over the last year.  The other thing would be that Carol and Kerri would arrive on the 30th, so and overlap with everyone together on that day.

Ellie and David arrived and they were met by their rather vanilla Aunt and Uncle when they arrived on lunch time on the 28th, we caught up on the news, told them ours.  All rather lovely.......

Come the evening David was dispatched to help me in the kitchen preparing and setting up for dinner while the "Girls" continued to chat and enjoy some wine.  I used the time to chat with David to get his view of how things were progressing with Ellie's Mother.  while things seemed better he still had some doubts and as such was making sure that he didn't do anything to create any added tension.

I asked him how things were progressing at home with Ellie, in particular with the FLR that they had?  All seem to be good and he is enjoying himself, while he didn't elaborate in detail he said enough for me to be happy, as it turned out we would find out a whole lot more over the next day or so.

As I told Alice and Ellie that dinner would be ready in a few minutes, I was called in and it was clear that Alice had switched to Madam and I was addressed as billie.  I was given clear instructions that I would be serving the meal for Madam and her guests and that I would eat when directed by Madam. With that I simply answered "Yes Madam" and went back to the kitchen and poured a glass of wine for David and told him to go and join "Madam and Miss Ellie" while I finished off and plated up.

I served the three of them and as I normally do I stood next to Madam's chair and one step back.  I was conscious that David kept looking at me , but Madam and Miss just continued chatting.  I generally moved when a glass needed topping up or when it was the plates were ready to be cleared.  David went to help with the clearing up but Madam told him to sit, as he was a guest, I'm not sure that he noticed the added statement of "don't worry you'll have your opportunity to serve...."

With the meal finished and the table cleared Madam dismissed me so that I could have my meal, which I took in the utility room.  As I was finishing Alice appeared at the door of the utility room and in a hushed voice "Are you ok?". I said yes and she winked at me and said "Thank you.  when you are done make some coffee for all of us and come and join us".  The rest of the evening was back to be all rather vanilla.

That night as we went to bed Alice told our visitors that breakfast would be at 9.00am and not to rush to get up and wait "for billie to let you know when it is ready.".  Alice took me to her room and told me what she wanted for the morning.

The next morning I knocked on the door of our visitors and informed that breakfast would be ready in 15 minutes.

When they came down Alice was sat in the living room with her morning Coffee and I was working in the kitchen.  Alice asked if they wanted Tea or Coffee.  two teas were ordered and shouted through to me.  Alice ushered them through to the dining table and they were greeted by me in one of my sissy maids uniforms, not the shortest but short enough.  I worked about them and provided Tea and a refill of coffee, Toast was already on the table as I  brought over the plates with the cooked breakfast.

With everything on the table I took my place next to Madam's chair, this time I was not a step back from the chair but next to it and a little closer.  What our guests didn't know was that Madam had told me to take that position prior to them coming down.

As they ate, both Ellie and David clearly saw that Madam was occasionally running her hand up and down my stocking clad legs.  Madam was making a show of it and it was incredibly humiliating for me, I'm sure that I was blushing a lot but it was certainly making my endorphins  run rampant.

Madam's aim was to try and show David and Ellie some of the different elements of  our FLR. The aim was to show that some part are very vanilla, most are routine - with the twist of submission.

While I stood there Madam made a point of explaining a bit about my submissive side and also about the humiliation side of things in relation to me and what I get out of it and the types of boundaries that we have.  There were questions and Madam gave the answers while I stood there with her hand on the inside of my leg.

With Breakfast finished, table cleared and the washing up done I had my breakfast - no cooked breakfast for me due to diet.  I then went and changed back to being Mick.

We went for a local walk as it cold but not raining and it meant that once we got going Alice and Ellie walked together and I walked with David.

David had lots of questions and I had some for him, In particular I wanted to get my head around him in their FLR.  It was quite interesting and you could see parts of it that matched our FLR back in the late 90s and early 2000s.  David was curious about the feminisation aspect of our relationship asking the question if I considered myself as Trans.  I explained that the feminization aspect was more a part of humiliation and if a label was needed then I'd be closer to being a crossdresser than anything else.

There was also a lot of discussion about the wearing of chastity devices.  Ellie had questions about the cages but she was looking in a different direction.  As we got into the conversation it was more about looking at the larger cages where it would even allow full or semi erections.  I suspect it may be more about bedroom play rather than permanent wear, and to give her control over David while she teased/tormented him.

Back home we settled into an interesting routine where both Alice and Ellie were dressed in a more "Madam" style rather than just relaxed style, and I found myself in a steady serious of changes of dress.  Ellie and David also got to see Ms Watson and the logic between each dress mindset or tasks was explained.  

We also got to see David in his submissive role, with him helping me with chores about the house and also serving drinks and food. While I refer to my wife and niece as Madam and Miss, David uses first names, it was hinted that this isn't always the case as I think that when they have a more 'bdsm' type of session then there is a more formal use of titles. 

It was interesting to find out how they had progressed from being invited to night clubs and going in a goth dress style got them invited to some events with a fetish type theme and then to going to several full on fetish events, of which they seem to still go to, which was good to hear about.

I also found out that David's particular liking is Ellie in vintage/ retro style lingerie and look as well as when she goes horse riding, particularly as she has restarted doing competing again.  I asked if it was the boots and jodhpurs but he pointed out that it is the whole piece, Tweed jacket, tight riding jodhpurs, long boots and riding crop.  Ellie did chip in that she had used her riding crop on her submissive - now that was an interesting revelation.

We also had questions about our relationship with Carol and Kevin/Kerri.  While we have talked about it before they were a bit more interested as they would be coming and staying for a few days over the New Year.  While it was straight forward to explain "Yes, your Aunt and Uncle are bi-sexual..." Mmmnn I'm not sure saying it was 'straight forward' but it is close enough, I did have to explain that with me it is only a case of being bi-sexual with Kerri, not Kevin.  

(note to everyone - we are not at the stage of explaining the bi-sexual part of cuckolding at this point in time as there is a different dynamic with that dealling with humiliation, emasculation and submission, we both think that it is better to deal with one thing at a time.....) 

It was during these chats that we mentioned about sex toys and along the way mentioned about butt plugs and also the strap-on, and now it was out turn to stop and look surprised when David matter of factually turned round and said "Oh yeah, Ellie has one of those that she uses on me....", well that was a revelation!  once we were over the initial shock it meant that we just laughed about it and realise that it had broken the ice and that we started to have a lot more discussion and conversation that covered David and Ellie's views and takes on FLR.

We really enjoyed their stay with us, it was fun and quite therapeutic actually talking and explaining our relationship to a young couple that were very open and interested.  It was also great to hear and see that they were enjoying establishing their FLR.

I'll finish with one last thing.  Carol and Kerri's stay with us over lapped with David and Ellie by a day.  When they arrived Kerri was fully in her full female finery - satin blouse, knee length pencil skirt, stockings, heels makeup etc.  Everything to make a caged person frustratingly uncomfortable.

We welcomed them in and Ellie, David and I was given a very lovely hug each from Carol, who then gave Alice a very passionate kiss in front of everyone.  Kerri then gave a friendly hug to Alice and Ellie before giving me a very passionate kiss and grope before giving David an equally passionate kiss with tongues.  the look of surprise on his face was priceless.  Apparently it had been pre arranged with Ellie and Alice just to see his reaction.  Yes it got a reaction.  I think he was quite glad when he was released and my 'girlfriend' came and reclaimed me as her prize.

It's going to be an interesting year - again - with our young couple, I think we will be having more visits both here and up at their home.  we'll just have to see how things progress.

Unexpected Night Away

As part of the future plan for our life  and FLR, where I start reducing work load, I arranged to meet with one of my clients.  My current job with the individual and his company was coming to a close and I wanted to let him know that I was reducing my future work load, which I thought was only fair as this individual has given me quite a bit of work over the years.

The guy is fairly busy but could fit me in on Friday afternoon as a face to face meeting.  The distance from home wasn't too far so it would be a short trip out and back.

However on Wednesday I got a call from the company with an invite to a dinner event with the client on Friday Evening.  Apparently the client was hosting a few of his clients and senior management people for a social event and the invite was as a 'thank you' for the work provided.

This is not my normal thing and as such I was going to politely decline the invitation until Madam asked me why I was going to decline the offer of an evening out.  Well it was on a Friday evening, it was near but not near in terms of a taxi ride, and the thought of a late night and then a hour drive back just wasn't what I wanted.

Madam pointed out that I've known this guy  over many years and we've had a very good working relationship, so I should take this offer, almost taking it as a farewell dinner.  Having thought about it I agreed and sent the response back.  An email came back telling me that I would have the meeting with the client at his offices at 4pm and that the dinner would take place at a nearby hotel and that a room for the night had been booked I was also asked if I would like to join everyone for a round of golf the following morning. It was clear that my client was aiming to impress who ever he was inviting from his client side.

I declined the game of golf, as I'm bloody rubbish at it, and didn't want to show myself up or my client.  I was going to decline the offer of the overnight stay, but Madam insisted that I take the opportunity to have a night out and even have a couple of drinks - but only a couple!

On Friday morning I found that Madam had packed my overnight bag for me, with a combination padlock on it. She told me that she would text me the combination once I got to the hotel.

The meeting went very well, the client was happy with my work and slightly disappointed that I would be becoming "semi retired", but hoped that I'd enjoy the evening as a thank you for all of the work we had done over the years.

At the hotel I booked in and then sent a message to Madam that I had arrived, to which I got a reply with the code for the padlock, a smiley emoji and the words "Enjoy your evening see you tomorrow morning".

When I opened the bag there was my wash bag, fresh panties and a set of hold ups clearly for the following morning to replace the ones I was currently wearing, but also a bra, stockings, suspender belt, heels and satin teddie with a note - "something to wear for the evening and to bed, send me some photos later Love Alice xxx." In the bag was the camera phone and also the selfie stick and the small tripod.

Considering that I hadn't been keen to attend the evening, it was really enjoyable evening and while there was some business chat and discussion it was a very relaxed event.  It was something that I hadn't done for a long time.

Having been fed and hosted well I went back to my room at the end of the evening to meet the requirements of Madam.

With my suit and shirt stripped off I went and retrieved the heels from the bag.  These were a pair that I don't often wear and they are not ideal for long term wearing, put them on and secured them on my ankles and then set up the camera to take a few photos.

My room was quite nice with a couple of nice chairs and a fancy table so I thought that would make a good backdrop.  What do you think?

With the photos taken and sent I headed to bed, dressed in the lovely teddie and with the stockings and suspenders making me feel very submissive and wishing I was home with Madam.

Note - I'm still topping and tailing the next post about our Christmas visitors so please bear with me.

billie xxx 

Christmas Part 1 - Discusions, Arguments, making up and uncaging

 Happy New Year from Madam and myself, we hope that you all had a good and festive Christmas break.

this is the first of 2 posts about our festive period, we thought that it was best to break it into 2 posts as there was 2 very distinct parts to our holiday.

The past year for us has had a number of ups and downs, such as Madam's promotion and also my ongoing health issues.  So it was with an element of trepidation that we all went into the christmas period with the view that it would be the first time when all 3 of us, Alice, John and myself would have time to actually sit down and talk about some of the things that needed to be voiced.

For John we needed to understand what is going on with both his work and also with his family.  At the start of the year John's company started a new contract and it was very good news for him and his workers but it took a lot of his time to ensure that things were running properly and everyone was happy.  Thankfully things have gone well and he has been able to settle into a steady routine and work pattern.

What has been a bit of a change for him however is that he has had more "demands" from his daughters, both are adults but with one of them having moved only a few miles from him and being in the process of settling down with a good job and her partner there is an element of pressure to pop round and spend time with her and "oh and by the way bring your lady friend".  As John puts it if he gets asked one more time by either of his daughters of "when he is going to get married to his 'fancy' woman" he is likely to lose his temper!  

this has been a building thing over the last couple of years and has become more of an issue over the last 12 months. Alice has met both of his daughters  at various times but these have been more by chance rather than by design.  The thing that we are all keen to do, and john especially, it to make sure that there is no expectation or assumption that the relationship is more than a physical relationship.   

Before people start to shout...Yes, We know that it is more involved and more complicated than just that, but as John puts it, his daughters and especially his ex-wife are not going to be quite as open minded as the readers of this blog, and he wants to make sure that he doesn't bring problems to us.

So What?  Well the plan is to be a bit more discrete and also to cut down the number of local public trips out. Both Alice and myself were initially concerned that things would be potentially coming to an end but this is a better solution for all of us.  None of us want John to be put in a position or to create issues with his daughters, but by the same token it was clear that John wanted to continue his part in our FLR.

The next discussion was something that I know was coming, I just wasn't quite ready for the level that it would go to.

Alice has been concerned over my health particularly over the last 2 years and the last 12 months have caused her real concern.  There is no dispute that I've had and still have problems, but she is really concerned over things with me.  Alice put her cards on the table and that was that she wants me to retire.  Walk away from everything and stay home and become the homemaker/ house husband/ submissive wife.

Alice's concern is that some of my health issues are due to me driving myself too hard, and pushing things too much. With her promotion she viewed  it that this would compensate some part of the loss of earnings and that we could manage.

Now she's right, we could get by....however there is a number of issues.

I don't want to retire.

Now this caused a bit of shock to Alice.  she thought that I would be onside with this, she had crunched the finances and she was sure that she had a solid case for me to retire once she is fully into he new job in April.

Well it's not a case that I don't want to retire, it is down to a number of things that need to be done before I can retire and with several of them they still need me to be working.  I had to explain to Alice about a number of things that needed to be done over the next 12 months, the important point is that there is some significant work that needs to be done to our house, we've been in it over 20 years and there are parts of it that need work doing to it.  Yes this is a project that is important and it will need me to be at home but it will need me to work to cover it.

There is also a couple of other things that need to be covered financially that had not be factored in by Alice, such as I was covering the costs for her Mothers home.  I explained some of the other things that I was dealing with which she was not aware of.

Finding out about these things created "a bit of an argument", while this conversation started as a Madam and billie type of chat, with Madam telling me what I was going to do it had certainly changed to a Mick and Alice heated discussion.  I think John was a bit uncomfortable with this but I managed to get things to settled down and laid out what i saw as a sensible compromise.

I have contracted work to see me through to April and early May, at that point I will wind down/close out most of my Project management roles and consultant work.  From the second half of the year I will then become Semi Retired, this will allow me to deal with the renovations and repairs that need to be done to our home.  It will also mean that I can focus on some of the less stressful elements of work while staying professionally active - training delivery, marking assessments, helping individuals with professional development.  A lot of this can be done from home or locally, it is significantly less involved and less stress.  And it also means that I can be more physically active and do more exercise locally.

I also explained that going to a "dead stop" technically and professionally would probably cause me more damage.  A managed "glide" out of work into retirement would mean that I could be better prepared for this.

Alice wasn't happy especially finding out that I was covering bills and costs for her family. it took a couple of hours to go through everything, to add context to and rationale to my plan.  Yes, I had been thinking about this and I had worked out what needed to be done.  

Yes I want to retire, yes I accept I need to change my lifestyle and this last year has involved significant changes already, but we think that we have a plan that might work.

We even discussed this blog, we all agreed that it was something that we wanted to continue doing. Will it change?  well we hope not, we don't have a plan for it to change.  So guess what? you are still going to get our mad ramblings...well as long as someone wants to read it.

The discussions took a fair bit of time and filled a lot of time for us.  we needed it and it was clear that 2024 was a year of change for all of us, but we have come through it with an outline of a plan going forward.

After such a heavy day of discussions, arguments, raised voices and compromising and lots of listening we all sat down late in the day with a couple of bottles of wine and actually realised that we had fixed and sorted most of the issues that we had.

All this was on the 23rd december and just as we finished the second bottle of wine Alice disappeared to her study and came back with the key to my chastity.  I was told to stand up and to present myself and she unlocked me.  This was a surprise, normally this would happen on Christmas morning or on Christmas eve.

But unlocked I was.  Alice then announced that she was going to bed and that she would like "both of her boys" to accompany her and to "make her feel loved." Well that isn't a request that you turn down.

I think that both John and I made sure that we made sure that by the time she fell asleep she was quite well "loved".

The following morning after Breakfast John had to leave as he was expected to be at his eldest daughters house for the Christmas period.

Alice kept me uncaged until the 28th, just before we had our first visitors - Ellie and David.  It was lovely to be uncaged and cuddling in to my wife, making sure that I looking after her needs but I knew that I would be caged and back into a more Madam and billie role before our visitors arrived.  We were also going to have Carol and Kerri visit as well and they would overlap with the young couple for the 30th and 31st December, so we had a busy house for a few days.  The next post will have more details on our visitors and what happened over that few days.  I should have that post up in the next few days.

We appreciate that this is probably one of our serious posts but we thought it was important to give some of the background to why things have been happening and why changes will be happening for us in 2025.

No matter what, we are still here and still enjoying things and enjoying our FLR, even when there are serious discussions and the occasional arguments and the making up.