The development of our FLR and relationship with Mistress Carol and Kerri - 2 old blog posts to add context

This was orginally posted by Madam on the 9 Aug 17 on our Wordpress Blog.  I've reposted it here as there has been several requests to us to explain how it all started

From Mistress Alice  

We've had an early start today and been and done our walk and sight seeing, a lovely lunch and now it is a bit of a relax.  Mick has been directed to do a bit of research for changes to outfits but I'm sure he will tell you about that himself - he seems to be tapping away on the his tablet at the moment so I'm not sure if he is contacting people or drafting his post to the blog. 

so how did we get to where we are, we have explained why we did it but how did this FLR relationship come into it's current form and how did we get it to work? 

Our relationship was becoming a series of arguments and clashing of heads in 2001, Mick's work frustrations and stress and my frustrations with life.  when Mick had his breakdown the air cleared and we had a really good heart to heart.  Our sex life had been very adventurous (for us at the time) and we both had done a bit of role play, bit of crossdressing and fetish play.  we had done a bit of Dom/sub playing (and that was what it was - playing) each taking turns to be the Dom.  The two surprises was that I really enjoyed the power trip and the feelings that it gave me and the other was that Mick struggled to take on that Dominant role - surprising as he was definitely an Alpha male in his work environment.  Mick was far more comfortable when he was in the submissive role. 

during our Heart to Heart Mick explained that he hated the arguments but he was just losing control of work and life, but he didn't want to lose me.  he wanted me to be his focus and as we talked we discussed how he would manage his work and how we would have to adjust our lives.  So the seeds were sown where I would become the Alpha in the relationship and Mick the submissive, Mick would finish his current contract and move to the consulting side of the industry - all of this just didn't happen but took almost 9 months of talking, trying things, talking again and learning. 

in the past we had both read a magazine called FORUM, (bear in mind this was 2001 and the internet was not the mine of information that it is now) and I went back through some old copies that we still had and read some of the articles and stories - some were clearly just that - Stories, but I did get some ideas.  On my next trip to London I went and picked up a current copy of FORUM and also called into a shop that I had visited with Mick before - Honour (near Waterloo Station) and picked up a couple of other magazines hoping to get some more ideas. 

In the back of most of these publications there would be  adverts for Mistress and contacts but you would also get personal ads.  In one I found personal ad from a Dominant Wife with a submissive sissy who was looking to develop his training.  while this wasn't what I wanted it did offer a potential insight to what/ where I wanted to travel. 

That evening I wrote (pen and paper were still in fashion at this point) asking the Wife if she could give me some pointers and advice so that I could develop the relationship with Mick.  I posted it to the PO Box number with the vain hope that it might get a response - my hopes at this point were not high.  2 weeks later I came home to a letter, neatly written, from a lady that referred to herself as Mistress Carol, it was polite but blunt, warning me that if I was a male thrill seeker then I could piss off, but if I was a fledgling Dom I should write again with more details. we corresponded for a about 6 weeks by post and then I was asked to provide a phone number and times when I would be in, preferably when Mick was not. 

Mistress Carol called about a week after the letter had been posted and our relationship started to take off.  we would chat twice a week, me with questions and Carol with advice (she had dropped the Mistress title once she realised that I was genuine and wanted help and guidance). 

3 months after starting all of this correspondence and calls it was decided that we should meet and So Mistress Carol became my mentor on the way to becoming Mistress Alice. 

Carol was a woman in her early 40s, she had been widowed in her 20's after a car accident that almost killed her but took her husband.  She had been working part time and slightly struggling to make ends meet and had been asked by a friend if she would like earn a bit of money helping her friend who was doing some Domination work, the way Carol explains it is far more interesting but it gave her a real insight to the scene and also an understanding about the different elements of Domination and Submission.  

Carol can explain the difference between the 2 hour whipping session with a paying client and a lifestyle choice.  while it provided her work it also meant that she was invited out into the fetish scene in London over the years she had a number of relationships but she found that she had a thing for submissive sissies and that is were she met her sissy Kerri, at that point called Kevin (Kerri is far cuter that Kevin).  Kevin is 18 years her junior.  When I first met Carol she had married Kerri 2 years previously and she had trained him to be her submissive sissy. 

Carol spent the weekend explaining a lot of the basics and fundamentals and it was great to meet Kerri and see what could be done.  The biggest take away from the meeting was that there is a difference with Dom Sub play and a FLR.  Carol was working/ playing in the Dominatrix world but had a FLR as part of her home life.  she had reduced her Dom work and was wanting to do a bit more with her sissy to get that home life where she wanted it.  She was quite upfront with me, she would help me, explain things to me  - show me where appropriate. but I would also be required to help with her development of Kerri. 

Over the next 12 months I learned a lot about the emotional side of FLR and how not to mess it up, how to understand the needs of the submissive are really, really important - often more important than those of the Dominant.  it allowed me to get our relationship right with Mick and to create sissy billie.  Carol also helped to train billie, this was introduced about 12 months into our FLR. 

when we started with Chastity (about 2005) we both took billie and Kerri to London to purchase their cages together and both Carol and I are the secondary Keyholders for each others sissy.  

We are very good friends and regularly meet up to play and for vanilla get togethers.  billie will at least twice a year be sent back to Mistress Carol for refresher training - almost like a Quality Assurance process to ensure that he/she is still suitably submissive and still can maintain the appropriate standards as a sissy maid and servant to her Mistress.  while billie dreads his training assessments I do think he enjoys meeting with sissy kerri as they are "very" good friends.  I'm sure we'll discuss that further later. 

well that's enough for now, time to have a cup of tea and get ready for this evening.

This next post is from the old wordpress blog and published 14 Aug 17

Sexual Orientation - Confused?

I've been told to make the use of the time while everyone is out of the house and I can be occupied in my office. 

Madam has already explained what the situation is in relation to me (Mick and billie) in terms of sex and love making. 

Madam has tasked me with explaining what our sexual orientations are.  Prior to the start of the FLR in our lives we were heterosexual and adventurous.  Oral both ways, anal (penetration of Madam by Mick and Madam using vibrators on Mick's arse).  no great shakes there.  we had watched Porn with lesbian but very little of male gay sex or male bisexuality.  we had watched some porn with Interracial and also cuckolding (at the time we didn't know the term cuckolding).  with the decision made that we needed to move toward a FLR relationship we both researched what it would mean. 

 Alice did far more that me as I was still on the mend from being "broken".  Mistress Carol, was a real godsend to Alice and as I got better I watched Alice grow and develop into being Mistress Alice.  Her trips down to Mistress Carol's would bring her back refreshed and more confident.  we had lots of chats and Alice didn't hide anything from me.  She had seen how Mistress Carol ran her FLR with her husband, kerri, and Alice liked quite a lot of that type of relationship, not all of it, but many elements to it appealed to her . 

Alice explained that Kerri was fully feminised while at home (and the occasional time outside) and that Mistress Carol also cuckolded him/her.  Alice explained that she wanted some feminisation for me but not full feminisation as she knew that the humiliation element needed to be a bit stronger with me - so by holding onto some elements of my male physical appearance while in female apparel we could achieve the desired effect.  it was also explained that Carol had a long term boyfriend/ partner that provided male company and sex for her.  she had cuckolded kerri with this Gentleman and that kerri was an active participant in this cuckolding - Alice explained what cuckolding was and the different types of levels/ involvement. 

Alice also explained that she had had her first full on Bisexual experience with Carol and had really enjoyed it and she fully intended to continue with this relationship. (Alice made it clear that she was not looking for multiple partners).  Alice explained that she liked the idea of having a steady boyfriend for sex and would like to cuckold me.  I could understand why, the level of stress that I had in life at that point had made my sex life non existent (or just a car crash event!) and my ability to maintain an erection was difficult.  her one stipulation was that if she found the right type of person then she would want me to be like kerri and to take part and to help with the cuckolding activities.  while initially this scared me with a little research and also a lot of conversations with Alice, Carol and kerri I tentatively agreed, but it was on the condition that we needed to be very careful about who she selected as a boyfriend and how to introduce them into our FLR - we are both professionals and there was our families to consider (well Alice's mainly as mine had pretty much disowned me years ago.) 

Alice also explained that I (as billie) would undergo training to become a better submissive, to learn how to serve and worship the stronger sex and also she would train me to become a cock sucker and to take cock in my arse -  I would either embrace bisexuality or we would engage in (a controlled) forced bi activities.  Mistress Carol and Madam had discussed things and my training programme and as part of that kerri would help with my sexual training.  if I embraced bisexuality them I would probably become kerri's boy/girlfriend.  Mistress Carol and Sissy kerri were very good trainers.  Mistress Alice learned how to use her strapon toys to develop me, and also having to eat my own cum after making love to Mistress or after masturbating contributed to ensure my steady slide to accepting bisexuality. 

I went to stay with Mistress Carol and kerri for a couple of months (almost as part of my recuperation) and it may sound odd to those outside the D/s world but it is incredibly stress releasing to be a submissive sissy maid, to focus on serving others and to stop being worried about things that are often beyond our control.  I enjoyed it - yes I was spanked and caned.  yes I spent time in bondage and with my nose against a wall while my Mistress and her friend, Mistress Carol had lesbian sex in the same room as me.  even the humiliation (verbal, physical, emotional) all worked to pull me back from being mentally broken.  (my one bit of advice - if you are under stress at work and you are in a high pressure environment then going and being a submissive to your wife or to a Mistress for an hour, a day or a week will do wonders for you.  give yourself to a Dominant and it will help you to release some of that stress.) 

As part of that training I was eventually required to share a room and bed with kerri.  he/she is quite a bit younger that me but was very accepting and help to teach me what it was to be a submissive, how to conduct myself and eventually I was made to suck her sissy clit (I'm not allowed to refer to her male parts as a cock or ass, she has a sissy clit and a sissy pussy -this may seem all very pedantic but it is an important part of being a submissive sissy).  kerri was also allow to fuck me, and later she made love to me (more foreplay, more feeling and more emotional involvement). 

Madam, explained that there was 2 aims to this sexual training, she wanted me to have a safe and controlled sexual partner - a girlfriend - in the form of kerri (Mistress Carol was looking for the same for kerri with me) and also to prepare me for serving both Madam and her boyfriend, once she had found the right one.  By the end of my training (and Mistress Alice's training) with Mistress Carol I was very comfortable with my sexuality as being bisexual.  Yes kerri and billie are girlfriends and Mistress Carol and Mistress Alice are Girlfriends.  that is still the case now 14/15 years on.  I do sexually serve Master John and while it does create a massive sexual turn on, also the there is a greater turn on from the  sexual humiliation of sexually submitting to a Master. 

There are elements of the Force Bi in there but it all adds into the sexual and erotic emotional mix that is in Mine and Mistress's FLR sexual orientation.  Madam openly admits she gets an incredible sexual buzz from watching me give head to a real cock or being fucked by her male partner.  I think that it is safe to say that Madam and billie are very much of the bisexual orientation  (afternote - we have a very small sexual group.  we don't swing or swap.  the group has 6 of us and that is a small and closed network - Madam, Master John, Mistress Carol and her long term partner, kerri and myself.  we are not looking to open that group and we are very comfortable with what we have.) 

yours in submission 

billie

A good weekend had by all

I dropped Sir and Madam off at the train station in Milton Keynes on Friday afternoon at 3pm and headed back to the house.  I changed out of my semi male attire (I was wearing a ladies blouse rather than a shirt and only had to change my male trousers and shoes) and put on a skirt and heels.

Its odd that I now do that as a matter of course and routine.  it isn't forced but I'm very comfortable with it - is this Madam achieving her aims of having a more female/ feminine house hold?

I pottered on with a few jobs in the house and got a few things out to make for my dinner when I got a call from Madam.

"Where are you at the moment?"

"in the kitchen, about to start making dinner"

"well stop what you are doing, go to your corner of the lounge and face the wall, stay there until you are told to move and don't turn around until you are given permission, Understand?"

"Is there a problem with the trains? is everything alright?"

"Yes things are fine and we are in the taxi to the hotel, now do as you are told!"

"yes Ma'am" and with that the call ended.

I put the fish back in the freezer (I didn't know how long I'd be in the corner) and went to the corner and put my phone on the small table near by to wait for Madam's next instructions.

I put myself on my spot, smoothed down my skirt , heels together  and hands folded across my the front of the skirt. and with my head slightly down.

I stood there for a while and to be honest I was trying to work out what Madam had planned,  we've done this domination by distance before when we've both been apart so it isn't a surprise but it does get your mind working.

As I was pondering what Madam's plan would be I heard the drive gate open  and a car pull in.  Thats really odd as both Sir and Madam are in London and normally delivery people have to buzz the bell to get access.  Everything told me to go and look but Madam had clearly told me to stay in the corner and not to turn around.

I hear the car stop and someone get out and close the car door.

The next thing I heard was the front door open and someone step into the hall.  now there are probably about 2 metres into the hall and then you have the lounge door , which is open and I am in the corner facing the wall diagonally opposit the door.  I will be honest my heart is racing, some one is in the house, I'm in female attire and in seconds I'll be visible.....fucking hell!!  I think at this point you could say that I may have had a high heart rate.

The front door closed, a couple of steps and I could hear them come into the lounge - the difference in the carpet (when you spend a lot of time facing walls in corners your other senses become more attuned to changes in noise and to people moving around behind you.

"My don't you look a picture!"

It was Kerri!

I went to turn but she was expecting that and I got a very quick rebuke!

"stand still, face the wall.  Just as your Mistress told you!"

I turned back to the wall and listened as Kerri came closer.  I think my heart rate was still high but for different reason,

Kerri, came up behind me and ran her hands up the back of my legs, under the skirt and slowly round to the front of my knickers.

Kerri whispered in my ear "has mean Alice gone away for the weekend and left you all caged up?"

"Yes Kerri"

"thats a shame, Alice has told me where my key is and I'm allowed out to play for the weekend, it's her valentines gift to me as well as having you all to myself for the weekend."

With that she turned me round and planted a very big kiss, and long lasting kiss on my lips.

Well this was all a big surprise for me.  when we broke off the kiss I was faced with Kerri the Goth.  She looked fantastic, she an carry the female look off in public and the Goth look really suits her.  I am always amazed at the way she does it - having seen her in male mode and in her sissy/ female mode she is definately really comfortable enfemme.  (not bad for a Morgage manager of a high street bank!!!)

I gave her a hug and kissed her again, It was really great to see her.  Kerri is very much my mentor and I could say sissy soul mate.

well after calming down (sort of - I was the submissive equivellant of an over excited puppy when her Mistress has just come home!)  I was told to get Kerri a drink - red wine and to go and get her bags from the car and put them in the Guestroom.

I came back to the lounge and Kerri was sat on the sofa with her wine, legs crossed and her stiletto ankle boots pointing at me.

"billie, be a dear and go to Alice's study.  there is a blue folder on her desk,  somewhere in that folder there will be a sealed brown envelope, bring it to me."

I almost ran to get the envelope, it was there in the folder, halfway down, I shook it out and brought it back to Kerri.  She told me to open it and inside was the key to Kerri's chastity.

Now Madam is Kerri's secondary keyholder, just as Kerri's Wife, Mistress Carol, is my secondary keyholder.  We both got our first chastitiy devices together back in 2005, so we have a bit of a bond over this.

I went to hand the key to Kerri but she stopped me.

"why don't you unlock it?  down you get billie, set your naughty girlfriend free!"

I quickly knelt and Kerri uncrossed her legs  and opened then, hitching the front of her skirt up.  she had black satin front knickers on and I eased them down as she lifted her bum of the sofa.  She has a metal cage similar to mine with the recessed lock.  I fitted the key and pulled that free, and then gently - and yes do it gently, eased the cage off my friends penis.  The back ring of the chasity was hinged and I opened that and took it clear of her bits.

I don't know why but I lean in and very gently started to lick her.

Kerri has been loccked up for quite a while - I'm not sure how long but i'm sure it's been a few months so I know that it takes a wee while to bring life back into a freed penis.  I spent a good while licking and slowly sucking on here, slowly coaxing it back to life.  the aim was not to make her cum and once she was content that she had some feeling back into things I was brough up and next to her on the sofa for what seemed like a long session of kissing.

Kerri explained that she was here for the weekend and would head back to Reading on Sunday night, we had permission to share a bed together - the Guest room - and Madam had booked a table for us at a Pub/ restaurant not too far away on Saturday night.  Other than that the weekend was our to enjoy, this Madam's real valentines gift to me and was to make up for not having my weekend with kerri in the Autumn .

And enjoy the weekend we did, even if I was still caged, it didn't matter.

Saturday night I took Kerri to the Restaurant, she looked great in a black dress with seamed stockings and a cream wool shawl over her shoulders, while I was in chinos and Jacket and tie but with basque and stockings underneath.  Kerri caged herself back up for the evening out so that she didn't have anything?! spoil the line of her dress. The meal was great, and Kerri had a few glasses of wine while I stayed sober as the designated driver.  kerri flirted with me all evening and even managed to do some flirting with the waiter, she can be a bit of a tart at times! bless her!

One we got home as I opened a bottle of wine for us, Kerri uncaged herself and that was us for the night.

I think when we collected Madam and Sir from the station on Sunday I think it was quite clear that we had enjoyed our weekend as much as Madam and Sir had enjoyed theirs.  Kerri stayed for dinner on Sunday evening and as a final act Madam had us both go to her study with her and I was made to lock Kerri back into chastity and hand the key back to Madam.  Madam kissed both of us on the lips and then had both of us kneel and kiss her shoes.  I was dismissed to get Kerri's bags and put them in the car and when I cam back Kerri was ready to go.  I walked her out to her car and we had a final kiss and I watched and waved her off.

now all of this may seem a bit odd, but my relationship with Kerri is fully sanctioned and really encouraged between our wives, Alice and Carol.  Just as Mistress Carol and Madam Alice are occasional lovers (Carol is Alice's one and only female partner) both myself and kerri were encouraged to form a partnership so that we could share each other's company and to be girlfriend/boyfriend to each other (chose which combination you would like of BF/GF).  Also Kerri really was my mentor as I developed as a submissive and as a sissy.  she has helped me develop and always been there for help and advice and it is great having time with someone who understand the other dynamics in our relationships.  it also helps that she knows the trials of being in chastity.

So all in all it was great having such a special house guest and I just wonder when we'll next have a get together - and maybe next time Madam will let me be uncaged.....or maybe not!

Happy Valentines - cards, presents and a sore bottom!

Happy valentines to everyone.

Sir stayed over last night and was present during my weekly review.  My review followed the normal pattern but with Sir sat in the leather chair at the side of Madam's desk.  Madam had her book with her points and observations - She had noted some misdemeanours and  a couple of "well dones" - my secretarial telephone manner earlier in the week was commended.  I also added my points from my note book and the main one was that I had laddered 2 stockings and also I admitted to be nearly late with a few of my tasks earlier in the week.

The result was that I was awarded corrections of 6 with the tawse (reduced from 10 for my "well dones") and a spanking of 12.

I was directed to get up and bend over my chair and Madam delivered my tawsing.  I remained in position expecting her to carry out the spanking but she stopped and invited Sir to deliver my spanking.

Sir accepted but said that rather than him get up I should come and lay over his knees, as he put it, so that he can best punish a sissy such as me.  I moved to where Sir was sat and presented myself over his knee.  Sir told me to make sure that my skirt was covering my chastity cage as he didn't want any drips on his trousers.

He flip the back of my maids uniform skirt up and gathered up my net underskirt and tucked into the ties of my apron and then with his left hand pushed/held my shoulders down which pushed my already red bottom up.

Sir considered my tawsing as my warm up and delivered a fairly heavy full-on 12 spanks - 6 to each of my arse cheeks. by the time he was finished I was flushed on both sets of cheeks - arse and my face. I was told to stand up, pull my knickers up and thank sir for helping me be a better husband
for Madam.  I bobbed a cursey and thank Sir and then expected to be dismissed to carry out my duties back in the kitchen.  However that wasn't going to be the case.

I was sent to the corner of the room and told to stand there, facing the wall and hold my skirt up at the rear.  Sir and Madam then proceeded to have a chat and finish their drinks as I stood on display for them.

Once they had finished their drinks they moved to the lounge and as they left the room I was told that I could finish tidying the kitchen and then go to bed.

This morning I was up as usual and made Tea and Coffee for both Sir and Madam, taking up to their room at 6.20am as directed.  I knocked and was told to enter and found Madam mounted on Sir and the two of them enjoying each other.  I put the tray down and was about to leave when Sir told me to stay and wait.

Once they finished Madam got off Sir and she told me to clean Sir so that he could go and shower.  Sir sat up and swung his legs off the bed and I knelt and applied my mouth and tongue to the task of cleaning up Sir's cock of both his cum and also of Madam's fluids.  once he was content with my service he told me to stop and to go and clean up my Mistress.  I climbed on the bed and went straight to task.  I love providing this service to Madam, whether it is waking her in the morning with my tongue, or bringing her to orgasm to set her up for the day or in this case cleaning and soothing her after being fucked by Sir - I love orally serving my Mistress Wife.

By the time Sir was finished in the bathroom Madam dismissed me and I went to get on with breakfast for my Dominants prior to them going to work.  I placed my valentines card and gift for Madam on the dining table at her place setting.

They came down, ate breakfast and as they finished I was summoned to present myself at the table.  Madam told me that Sir had given her some black satin retro lingerie as a present and that I was to make sure that it was packed in her bag for the weekend.  she opened my card and gift, which was a black Satin deep 6 strap suspender belt and a couple of pairs of fully fashioned stockings (Master and myself may have colluded together to get items that matched for her).  Madam was delighted and I was told to add these to the bag as well.  I was told to come next to Madam's chair and to kneel down.  Madam kissed my forehead and thanked me for the card and gift.  she then passed me a wrapped present and told me to open it.

Inside was a valentines card and 2 pairs of the open crotch MissO tights, one pair was the plain black type and the other was the seamed version.  I was told that I could wear the plain pair this weekend with my sleep suit but the seamed pair were to be kept.

Sir passed me a card at this point, which was a Valentines card as well  but he had printed a new insert and glued it in the middle - "to my Girlfriend's submissive beta sissy cuckold husband, from your Master John."

I was told that his present wasn't ready yet as he had ordered another sleep suit for me in a different colour and with a few changes to it, once it arrived then I could give Madam and Sir a show of it and wear the seamed tights with it.  I thanked both of them and then got back to my jobs and allowed them to finish breakfast.

Sir finished and left in his car, but I had to quickly get changed so that I could take Madam to work, as I would be collecting them both this afternoon to take to the train station for their weekend away - collecting Sir from his house and Madam from her work.

I had best finish here as I need to head off shortly to go and pick them up remembering to put Madam's bag in the car -her new underwear is already safely packed inside.

It's been a good day for everyone here at Madam's household and hopefully Madam and Sir will have a good weekend.

Ready for the weekend - almost!

With Valentines day tomorrow, there have been plans made, bookings arranged and currently I've been Ironing Madam's cloths and getting her bag ready.

One of Sir's rules is that valentines day is a day for him and Madam,  not me and my wife.  I am required to get Madam a card and a gift from cuckolded husband to his Mistress Wife (you don't see many of that specific card in the card shops - "Excuse me could you point me towards the cuckold husband card section?") and the gift is normally something for Madam to enjoy with her boyfriend.

In the past this has been Lingerie, or a voucher for a spa treatment prior to going out with Sir.  this year will be no different.

Sir will be taking Madam to see a show in London on Friday night and staying over in a hotel, they are then going to another hotel on Saturday night and then back here on Sunday.  I made the initial  bookings before Christmas and had a few things to check/ change this week - hence my earlier post this week.  The final confirmation came back this morning so all things are done:

train tickets booked and collected.
both hotel reservations booked and paid.
special arrangements confirmed for the hotels and the room.
theatre tickets booked and printed out
evening meals/ restaurants booked

all the details and information are printed out and I've put them together into a folder for Sir to take with him.  I've also sent the details electronically to him so he has them on his phone - all a bit "belt and braces" but that's what a good secretary should do - isn't it?

Madam has told me what clothes and lingerie she wants packed in her bag and at the moment I've finished the Ironing and I'll have everything packed ready to go shortly.

Sir will be coming over this evening as he wants to be with Madam from the very start of valentines day.  Madam informed me that Sir will be arriving at 6pm and that I should have dinner ready for 7pm.

Madam has also messaged to remind me that with my weekly review this evening, I should make sure that her study must be spick and span as Sir will also be in attendance.  my suspicion is that I may end up with a sore bum this evening!

With Madam and Sir going away for the weekend what are the plans for me?  The tasks that I know of is that I will be taking Madam and Sir to the train station on Friday afternoon, collecting them on Sunday afternoon (late) and that I am to have a full roast dinner served at 7pm on Sunday night.

so the rest of the weekend will be just spare free time? Err, No, I've already been warned that Madam will leave me some tasked to do in her absence and that I probably will have a full and occupied time, so we will have to see what the plan is for that, Madam does like to keep me busy and often with surprises!

I didn't realise you had a Secretary....?

After my trip to Scotland delivering some training and marking the exams, the friend who got me the work contacted me on Monday if I was interested in some more work of a similar type.  

Normally this wouldn't be an issue and yes I was interested in doing some more of the lecturing work.

The problem was when he called I was in sissy secretary mode in the office and the call came in on the land line.  So what's the issue?

It is valentines week and Master had set me the task of booking a hotel and dinner reservation for Madam and Him in London.  I had made the initial booking on line using one of my work email addresses in the name of Ms Billie Watson - my secretarial name.  about 18 months ago Madam had decided that my time in the office for most of my work could be done by a secretary or an admin assistant and as such I would take on the role, dress and responsibilities.  I even had to submit a CV and be interviewed by Sir for my suitability for the role. (I think that the blog post that covered this was on the old Wordpress site, but I may still have it some where.)

So when it comes to these types of bookings and just generally working in the office I need to be Ms Billie Watson (I'll explain the origin of the name later).  Madam and sir occasionally phone the office line and they expect Ms Watson to answer not Mick Luff, and having already spoken to the hotel I was waiting for them to call back with confirmation of the bookings and the details.

So when the phone rang I picked it up and answered "Xxxx Consultancy, Ms Watson speaking"

I didn't get the booking office but my friend, "Oh, eh, Is Mick in the office?"

well I bluffed it, "no, sorry Sir, he's out meeting a client this afternoon".  

Now I was keeping my voice as soft and quiet as I could and to be honest I've found that I tend to use a slightly rural Kentish accent as that was the area that I spent time as a kid and a teenager.

I took the details and contact information for "My Boss" and I promised that Mick would call back once he was back in later that afternoon.

I put the phone down and then realised that my heart was going at 20 to the dozen!!

2 hours later I called my friend back (he's not a mate but a guy that I've worked with several times in the past and we get on very well - so we know each other but we don't know each other well - if that makes sense.)

"Hi Alistair, sorry I missed you earlier I was out with one of the local clients..." and so we started to chat and he offered me another couple of days worth of tutoring as a stand in and also the promise of quite a few bits of future work if I was interested.  Yes I was interested and could he email the details through. No problem!

Once we had finished the official  business part of the chat thing got onto general chat pleasantries and then he spoke about billie...

"Mick, you sly old bugger, does you Missus know you've got a secretary?",

"Eh, yes, it was her idea to get one.  to take the pressure of me and to cut my hours in the office"

"Oh right, well if the wife chose her then chances are we're not talking about a 21 year old in a short skirt then!"

"No Alistair, we're not talking about a 21 year old, she's in her 50's and bloody good at her job!"

It was good humoured banter and to be honest it actually gave me quite a buzz of excitement (and confidence ) that I had managed to carry it off.  I chatted with Alistair for about another 10 minutes and then put the phone down.

I sank back into my seat and looked down at myself, looking at the physical presence of Ms Billie Watson, dressed in short pleated skirt, white blouse, stockings and heels. Yes the secretary may not be 21 but she's certainly one for the short skirts and stockings!

Whats in a Name?

Madam has explained in an earlier blog post that she slected my name of billie as it is linked with my middle name of William, she wanted a more feminine name and so billie was chosen rather than billy.

Watson is the maiden name of my Maternal Grandmother and Madam thought that would be an appropriate surname to use and suitably removed from Mick's surname of Luff.

So that how my secretary persona is Ms Billie Watson, a very busy member of staff in my business!

Some practical pointers for chastity wearers - panties

I've been wearing chastity devices for about 15 years now, and the last few years have seen longer and longer periods of wear.  linked with that has been the fact that I spend the majority of time in women's lingerie.

So when you combine the two activities there are a few things that you learn.

Now things to note, my clit is not cut - I'm not circumcised, and my foreskin does not fully retract back behind the head of my clit so it is not uncommon for my foreskin to poke out of the end of the smaller chastity cages that I wear.

So what?

well this creates a bit of a dilemma - I like lingerie and it turns me on, I like wearing Lingerie and that turns me on.  There is a wide range of female knickers and panties that looks great and feels great but if you wear chastity you need to take care.  make sure that you choose the right knickers to suite your chastity!

For me Lace fronted knickers look fantastic and on Madam they are sexy as hell, but when I wear them they are murder - why?  because as my foreskin pokes out and once I start moving it can ,if the lace is particularly stiff, be like taking a cheese grater to my foreskin!!! not nice!

If you are going to wear lace fronted knickers probably best use a fully closed cage like the CB6000 type.

Next is nylon knickers with patterns on them - very similar to the lace ones, depending on the type of pattern.  they often feel like areas are raised or thicker where the pattern is and if that's at the wrong place - well can still be a bit rough on your little caged bits.

Currently I'm locked in an open metal cage so I try to go for nylon panties with a tight weave (smooth finish), silks or satins.  these can be quite thin material and if you are looking for the visible show of your cage there is still plenty to chose from.

my advice is unless it is a punishment - choose your knickers to match your chastity, it can make you feel a whole lot better for it!