Good Evening Everyone,
My apologies for my absence, Unfortunately I've had to leave my good home life and our world of a safe and structured FLR to spend time being Mick and deal with a very personal family matter with my family.
I have been estranged from family for all of my Adult life, there has been times when they have tried to drag me back into the toxic pit that I quietly left so many years ago.
The last 2 weeks has seen me forced back into that world, the difference is that the Mick that went back into that world was considerably different from the young Mick that left it 40 years ago. I'm not proud to say that for the last 2 weeks I have been an Emotionally Hard Evil Twat and not the person that I want my wife to know.
I made a point of not going home to Alice, and I didn't want Alice to come to me. I didn't want some of my family to have contact with wife, why? because some people in this world are just simply toxic and they get a kick out of trying to manipulate others, unfortunately they would have taken the opportunity to attack the special person in my life just to watch me hurt.
Well, I played their game but to my rules and on Tuesday this week I walked away from them again but this time I walked away tall and proud rather than slinking away secretly. It has taken me a few days to clear the anger out of my system.
I have been home for a couple of days know and this weekend is going to see me return to being the husband that my wife wants and needs.
I want to state this, Alice and John have been brilliant in supporting me, and very understanding of the creature that I have by necessity had to be so that I could deal with the problems at hand.
Also thanks to Kerri, Poppet and SaraE, I'm very grateful to you for your support and tolerance of an emotionally confused and angry individual.
So I'm back home but more important I am back to becoming billie. This couple of weeks have made it really clear that the FLR is so important to my well being. And all you crazy cats, with your Kinks and different takes on life are just the greatest of people and friends and it is so good to be back into this life.
My chastity is back on, I'm back wearing appropriate underwear and it feels good to be calling the personal that I love and worship "Madam" and "Ma'am".
I'm back were I want to be and all is good.
Thank you all
billie xxx
❤️
ReplyDeleteThank you Marciann, thats very appreciated.
Deletebillie xxx
My mother passed away and as part of the legal requirements of dealing with her affairs there was an attempt to have me become part of the family business again, something that I don't wish to be part of and I walked away from many years ago, so I made legal arrangements to sever all ties with. quite a lot of arguments and threats. But I'm content that I have stepped away from that world and that they have no call into me or onto Alice. A tough couple of weeks, mentally and physically.
ReplyDeletebillie xxx
well good for you, now hopefully you can get back to what your meant to do , serve and be a good sissy. and probably a lot of chores to take care of to sissy. right?
ReplyDeleteThank you, it's good to be settling back into the normal routine. I'm almost back on top of my chores.
DeleteYay, back where you belong in the role that befits you and makes you (and others) very happy. i am really delighted for you billie although sad that you had to go through all that you did.
ReplyDeleteTake care
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Thanks P, It's been an interesting journey over the last few weeks, not one that I would recommend. However Madam has me back where I belong and I'm quite happy, thank you very much.
ReplyDeletebillie xxx
what is new with you sissy?
ReplyDeleteHi,
Deletejust getting back into a normal routine after all of the disturbances in my vanilla life. I've started posting again so thats a step in the right direction.
billie xxx